What a wonderful week

This week turned out to be wonderful! Just a little change in my thinking and starting to dream again, I am turning things around. I can't believe how much the little steps and permission for myself to dream has allowed me to attract so many positive experiences this week.

I went to the University of Washington this week to a lecture about MBA programs and if this is the right next step for me. It was so interesting and being back on the campus felt so good. My senior year in high school allowed for me to do a month's worth of research on the UW campus and I loved it. I walked around the campus a bit before my lecture and saw so many interesting posters of upcoming lectures and past lectures. I was able to look around Paccar hall which is where the Foster School of Business - UW's MBA program is housed and it made me giddy with excitement. I realized that I really want to start working on applying to school. I also learned that I am closer than I realize to being able to apply for an MBA program. I don't have to take as many classes as I thought I would and I was given the information I needed about what classes to take.

Along with my adventures at the UW, I also started my positive dream journal. It felt a little strange at first because instead of recording what was happening in my life, I am recording what I want to create in my life. But this has been one of the best projects I have created for myself. I am able to dream again and my excitement for the future is returning. Life is becoming more of a canvas than a finished piece of art. I enjoy the idea of using the same methods that I built my first company on to build my next adventure in life.

And to top it off I have a very busy and fun weekend planned. Loads of dinners with good friends, parties and snow is even scheduled for the mountains which means my dream of learning to snow shoe is only weeks away! Positive energy is all around me right now and I am looking forward to next week.

What do you want?

Yesterday I spent a wonderful day with a friend from the East Coast. She was visiting her family that is in the Northwest and wanted to catch up since I had not see her since I left in June. We worked together and shared a very similar path in the Berkshires. This friend left a few weeks after I did and returned to her home on the East Coast.

Yesterday we sat at looked at the water while we chatted about life. She was just what I needed. The last few weeks have been good but I have also been in a funk. School is going really well and I have my next classes picked out. But in other area's of my life I have just been down. My friend gave me a suggestion on how to approach the day. She made me realize that I was getting lost in the overwhelming big stuff and forgetting about the little things that are more important. She suggested I wake up every morning and think about what I want for that day. Nothing more. Just "what do I want for the day"?

So this morning I woke up and thought about what I wanted for this day. It was easier than I thought it would be and it did bring a level of peace I have not felt in a long time. I have my day planned and I feel good about it. I can now move forward without feeling overwhelmed.

I also realized while talking with my friend that I am not visualizing what I want in life. I used to be so good at thinking things into my life and seeing manifestations all around me. But somehow after being sick and recovering I lost my desire to dream. I lost my creative way. I lost my direction. So starting today when I think of even the smallest desire that I would like to bring into my life I am going to write it down. This will gradually over time provide me with a larger picture of what direction I want to take. It will also provide insight that I may not be seeing into my life. But more importantly it just sounds fun to me. And while being creative with the larger picture things I can keep asking myself.... What do I want with today?

My mind has been exploding

School has been such a wonderful treat for me. I can already see myself using what I am learning in my everyday experiences. I think about articles I read differently, I look at products and business reports differently, I even watch movies with a different eye. This has been one of the most exciting transitions in my life.

Besides working on creating my next project and school work... I am just taking it easy. I am settling into a new notion of my life post illness and doing the emotional recovery that I had to put off. It has been challenging but necessary. I have a couple of friends that have dealt with serious illness and we talk about when the body begins to recover there is a lag time for the emotional side to recover. Sometimes we joke about starting a support group for lives interrupted by illness. Sometimes we complain about it but mostly we realize that time has become a different measure for us and we move forward gratefully and gracefully. I do wish there was more support for people in this situation. As I get older I witness more and more of my friends that join this group of people. It is not easy to be taken out of the working world and community while trying to return to health. And without a large amount of money in the bank it can become almost impossible for people and their families.

Enough of that. I am healthy and getting back into the world so I should be focusing on having fun. There has been a lot of fun events around town lately. Every weekend has been fun filled these last few weeks. It's been amazing weather and a wonderful dry fall. Perfect weather for having fun!