Today I start my first class towards becoming a life coach!
This is a giant step for me and a step that I am so excited to take. I have been dreaming about this change since over the summer and I can't wait to start being active in creating my new reality.
I also have come to a lot of truths about myself lately. By embracing these truths, I feel like the dark clouds are starting to part. I have this new level of Joy bubbling up and it feels so good. I can't keep pretending to be something that I am not. I know why I have been pretending to be this person but it finally needs to stop. I am embracing my truth and a funny thing has happened. Everyone around me is being supportive and loving towards me. I feel giddy.
I am not ready to fully share this truth with the world so I hold it dear to my heart right now. But by embracing my true self, I am finally feeling true love and peace about myself and the world.
I am so looking forward to the start on my book club!
Monday, October 28, 2013
Tuesday, October 15, 2013
Being on the edge of change
I know this feeling. I have had it before. It's familiar yet I can't define it yet.
It's the feeling of being on the edge of a major change but not knowing how this change will manifest. It's not the most comfortable place to be. I am uncomfortable with my old life and yet I am not experiencing the new life yet. I am doing a lot of praying and dreaming. I am maintaining my current life while waiting.
What is nice is that I get older, I no longer feel the need to be destructive during this time. In the old days I would have ended relationships, quit jobs and moved across the country just to stop this feeling but not now. Now I am challenging myself to live in it. To go deep inside myself and see what my heart is calling me to do. And to just experience these feelings but I no longer want to be shut down anymore.
I am starting to receive emails from people interested in joining the book club that I signed up to lead. This is exciting!
I am preparing to sign up to become a life coach which is a huge change for me. And I am still focusing on my health and happiness.
I had one very successful moments this past weekend. I attended a party this weekend that was thrown by an old friend from high school. I have not seen any of these people since the day I graduated from high school. Many years ago I had my 10 year reunion and I skipped it. I was not in a place where I felt like I was ready to see my classmates. There were only 37 of us and we had all been going to school together for years. I was so disappointed with my life and felt insecure that I shut almost everyone out in my life.
Well this weekend was different. I am happy with my life. I am relaxed. I am confident.
It was so great to see these people that were so important in my childhood yet they don't even realize it. It was like going home in so many ways.
I am not where I want to be in life yet but I am finally stepping into my life in a way where I am happy and proud of everything I have done. And I want to open myself up more to people.
I think this is my new goal at the moment. To open myself up more and connect with people. This feels very right for me at the moment.
It's the feeling of being on the edge of a major change but not knowing how this change will manifest. It's not the most comfortable place to be. I am uncomfortable with my old life and yet I am not experiencing the new life yet. I am doing a lot of praying and dreaming. I am maintaining my current life while waiting.
What is nice is that I get older, I no longer feel the need to be destructive during this time. In the old days I would have ended relationships, quit jobs and moved across the country just to stop this feeling but not now. Now I am challenging myself to live in it. To go deep inside myself and see what my heart is calling me to do. And to just experience these feelings but I no longer want to be shut down anymore.
I am starting to receive emails from people interested in joining the book club that I signed up to lead. This is exciting!
I am preparing to sign up to become a life coach which is a huge change for me. And I am still focusing on my health and happiness.
I had one very successful moments this past weekend. I attended a party this weekend that was thrown by an old friend from high school. I have not seen any of these people since the day I graduated from high school. Many years ago I had my 10 year reunion and I skipped it. I was not in a place where I felt like I was ready to see my classmates. There were only 37 of us and we had all been going to school together for years. I was so disappointed with my life and felt insecure that I shut almost everyone out in my life.
Well this weekend was different. I am happy with my life. I am relaxed. I am confident.
It was so great to see these people that were so important in my childhood yet they don't even realize it. It was like going home in so many ways.
I am not where I want to be in life yet but I am finally stepping into my life in a way where I am happy and proud of everything I have done. And I want to open myself up more to people.
I think this is my new goal at the moment. To open myself up more and connect with people. This feels very right for me at the moment.
Monday, October 07, 2013
The Desire Map Book Club
What have I done?
I just signed up to lead a local chapter of Danielle LaPorte's Desire Map Book Club. I am so exited for this opportunity to meet with new people, to grow in my life personally and professionally and to start working with Danielle LaPorte's book. I have a feeling that life is going to grow and change because of this decision and I am embracing it all!
Lately I have been working with my feelings and energy and trying to lead with the feeling of love. This has been very useful lately as my life continues to evolve and change. I am dealing with feelings long buried and ignored. I am having feelings surface that I never knew where in me. It has been strange but very much a process of the storm before the calm. I know I am ridding myself of things that need to be out of my life but it's so hard right now.
And I have new changes on the horizon that are exciting!
But before I can get fully excited I have to keep working through my feelings and healing. It's a process.
I just signed up to lead a local chapter of Danielle LaPorte's Desire Map Book Club. I am so exited for this opportunity to meet with new people, to grow in my life personally and professionally and to start working with Danielle LaPorte's book. I have a feeling that life is going to grow and change because of this decision and I am embracing it all!
Lately I have been working with my feelings and energy and trying to lead with the feeling of love. This has been very useful lately as my life continues to evolve and change. I am dealing with feelings long buried and ignored. I am having feelings surface that I never knew where in me. It has been strange but very much a process of the storm before the calm. I know I am ridding myself of things that need to be out of my life but it's so hard right now.
And I have new changes on the horizon that are exciting!
But before I can get fully excited I have to keep working through my feelings and healing. It's a process.
Wednesday, October 02, 2013
Trying to have Faith
My theme lately is one around Faith. I am struggling with having faith that the right thing will happen. I want to plan, control and force what I want to happen in my life but right now it's just not working.
Because of this I have been suffering. I was feeling upset about my life, my direction, my surroundings but then something clicked last week.
And I just let go!
I realized that the right thing will happen. I have to stop living in the future or living in the past. I need to just focus on what's happening in that moment and release the rest. And with that my pain calmed down. I felt present again and I am just putting everything into the hands of the Universe. I will stay active in laying the foundation to the direction I want to go in life based on my feelings. The details are not something I can control. I know I want a successful career that I love. I know I want a partnership with someone that makes me very happy. I know that I want to enjoy my family and friends. And that I want to live an intentional life.
Beyond that. It's none of my business. My career can be anything that makes me happy and provides for my life. My partnership is closer than ever because I am breaking down walls within myself and doing my work. My time with family and friends can be amazing because I actively make these dates fun and open to adventure.
It's still a daily struggle in many ways but everyday I am a little calmer and trusting faith more.
Because of this I have been suffering. I was feeling upset about my life, my direction, my surroundings but then something clicked last week.
And I just let go!
I realized that the right thing will happen. I have to stop living in the future or living in the past. I need to just focus on what's happening in that moment and release the rest. And with that my pain calmed down. I felt present again and I am just putting everything into the hands of the Universe. I will stay active in laying the foundation to the direction I want to go in life based on my feelings. The details are not something I can control. I know I want a successful career that I love. I know I want a partnership with someone that makes me very happy. I know that I want to enjoy my family and friends. And that I want to live an intentional life.
Beyond that. It's none of my business. My career can be anything that makes me happy and provides for my life. My partnership is closer than ever because I am breaking down walls within myself and doing my work. My time with family and friends can be amazing because I actively make these dates fun and open to adventure.
It's still a daily struggle in many ways but everyday I am a little calmer and trusting faith more.
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