Threshold

Threshold : the point or level at which something begins or changes

I am at this place where everything is connected and making sense.  I meet with a coach and they tell me what my next step is.  Suddenly someone arrives in my life that is exactly the person I need to take that next step with.  It's amazing.

This happened just last week.  I met with a new magic coach and she rocked my world.  But she also said I needed to look into a 5 elements acupuncture body worker.  I needed some work done to help me find the missing piece.  I happened to stumbled across the website for 5 Lights Acupuncture and felt drawn to meet with Amber.  From the moment we spoke on the phone it felt like we knew each other.  We have never met but it feels like we have been friends forever.  Divine timing made it so she had a 2 hour opening on the new moon which was perfect because this new moon had a power punch to it.

As I filled out the forms in the office I got to the part where it asked "What medical condition brings you in today?".  I wrote down,  I am not here for a medical condition but I am here for a magical condition.  When we had our getting to know you session and she read this she laughed and got excited.  She said she has never had a client come out and say that's why they were coming to see her and she was fully on board to help me in my quest.  I explained in detail why I was coming to see her. That I am preparing to launch a new life but I need to do some work before I can launch this exciting new project.   And that I need to be balanced before I launch the new project because I am the type of person that will throw myself so much into building my business and my career that I forget to feed my soul and my heart.

She totally got it and is excited to be working on such a unique and personal journey.  We had our session and I left feeling amazing.  One interesting note is that my 2nd and my 7th chakra's were totally balanced.

She was not surprised about my 7th chakra being balanced.

But the 2nd chakra did surprise her.  Based on this understanding on the 2nd chakra, I am not surprised.

The rest of my chakras were wonky so there is work to be done.  But  this insight gives me real excitement for what's coming next.  And for my work with Amber.  She is a true light worker and magician.  I am being guided at this point to exactly what I need at every step in a way I have never been guided before.  My needs are being met in such a super way that I just feel this constant flow of love and gratitude towards the universe and everyone.

I also just signed up for Hannah Marcotti's Making Magic Circle group.  I am so excited to be a part of this program.  Life is in full color now and I am wake up every morning grateful for another day to experience it.

Sometimes the Shadow Needs to Come Out

Yesterday I had a realization that has left me spinning in a good way. 

Sometimes the shadow needs to come out.

For so many years I have refused to pay attention to the negative side or the shadow side because I only wanted to pay attention to the positive side of things.  I wanted my energy to go towards what I wanted to attract or manifest in life.  And in most area's of my life this was working but in certain area's of my life, I found myself repeating patterns.  I have been sitting with myself over the last year questioning why I can't break these patterns.  Why it's been years and I keep having the same underlying issue come up.   Yesterday it hit me.  By refusing to state what I don't want in my life, by refusing to state all the awful situations I have been dealt, I was giving these situations more energy than I realized.   I was constantly fighting myself trying to ignore these issues.   I was working hard to hide them thus giving them energy versus just to admit to them and release them.

This realization hit me so hard.  I could see a direct energy connection to all these negative patterns and why I kept repeating them.   It was a direct energy suck.   I immediately created a releasing ritual and finally did what I should have done years ago.   I wrote 4 pages of what I didn't want anymore.  I wrote down everything!  I wrote down what I don't want to be attracted too, what I don't want to put up with, what I don't want to be involved in.  I was so open and honest with myself.  I used all my past relationships as guides of what I do not want anymore.   I then burned the list and prayed to be released from all of these patterns.   They no longer serve me. 

I can feel the shift today.   When I start to think about men from my past or people in my current life that are from this old negative view of what I deserve, I remind myself that this is the old pattern that I am finally giving attention too and I immediately release the attachment.  By refusing to give it attention for so many years I kept recreating this mess until I finally was strong enough to say, enough is enough.   I deserve more.   I deserve more. 

Sometimes you have to shine light into the shadow world to clean it out and realize it is not scary.  That there are lessons in the underworld that you need to learn before you can shift.  And once you shine the light into this space, it no longer has power or hold over you.  It suddenly starts to die in the light and makes room for what you do want.