Feels good to blog again

 I have to admit, I missed Blogger.  I love this format so much.  I started my first blog in 2000 and I am still at it!

This weekend has been filled with friends.  It feels good to see people again but its also a little strange.  I forget how long it has been since I have seen anyone.  So much to catch up on and go over.  I love seeing everyone but I have to say, I get exhausted when its over.  Like fall asleep at 5 o'clock at night tired.   It's a good muscle for me to use since sales will start up again in a few months and that means many more social interactions.  

It's also interesting to see my vulnerability show up when I am with people.  I can no longer pretend that people don't hurt me.  I used to think I was immune to caring but now I realize, that I just carry the pain around.  So instead, I am showing my vulnerable side so that people know I do care and I do get hurt by things they say or do.  I am not immune, I am just used to living with trauma and pain.  Which I think is one of the things that caused me to become so sick.  Let the healing begin!

I am off to a birthday breakfast with friends.  Then to pre-sprout more flowers for the spring time.  I am quickly coming up to my travel day so I need to get as much done as I can while I am gone.  That way, the flowers will wake up and be ready for pots when I return.  

Have a beautiful day!