New Energy - New Year - New Theme

The greatest love of all is SELF LOVE!

This year already feels different.

I am deep down happy.

I am happy to be alive.  I am happy to be in my job.  I am happy to be living in this wonderful city. I am grateful for my past and excited about my future.  I am happy, present and full of love.

My birthday was a pretty normal day but it truly wasn't.  It was the first time in a long time I truly owned the day.  I let people celebrate me.  I let people take me out to lunch and wish me a happy birthday which in the past I would have hide the fact it was my birthday.  I owned that it was my day and that I deserved a little attention.   I am stepping into myself and my life in a way I have never done before.   I am letting myself take up space and it feels so good.  I feel that I deserve to be treated well and owning the fact that this treatment starts with me.  So this next year of my life is all about me treating myself the best way I can and from this, people will treat me differently.

I also know that my life is changing on so many levels.   I have finally discovered the root of many of my health issues and I am 2 weeks into my treatment.  I am coming back to my healthy self!  This summer was really hard.  I struggled with everything because my health was in such decline. But I am back and better than ever.   I am not going to be able to heal my issues right away but I can slowly work towards a happy healthy point and get the worst of my condition under control.

I am also just feeling so strong emotionally.   I am free of all emotional sadness around my past.   This is powerful.  I am excited for my future.  I love my past and and my journey but what I love the most is where I am right now.  It's a beautiful place to be.  I am successful.  I am manifesting my dreams.  I am moving into a dream home. I am buying a new car soon.  I am taking dream vacations.  I am saving money for my future. I am taking care of myself and my family.   I am living my dreams.
I just want to state the to the universe that I am grateful for everything!  And that I am bringing the Queen back!

New Moon

Today mark a powerful new moon in Virgo.

I am spending the day trying to get clear of what I want in life and in my work life.   I am also approaching my birthday and starting to think about  the last year and  how I have changed and grown.  It’s been a very painful year.   This statement about sums up how my last year has been.  Painful Growth.   But with painful growth comes true change and closer.   If it was not painful, I would not have been able to walk away otherwise.   

So here I sit on the new moon before my birthday and I am starting to think about what changes I want to create in my life.   I want to set my intentions around a couple of core places.

Health – I intend for this new year to be a healthy year.  I intend for my body to start to match my energy level and for me to be seen as a healthy and beautiful fit lady.   I intend to continue on my quest to become the healthiest version of myself that I can be and to keep eating healthy, working out and putting my self care first.  I love this strong and soon to be fit body and I look forward to seeing the changes that will happen as I continue to nurture myself.

Work – I intend to create an easy and successful transition to being self-employed one day.   I intend for my current job to remain stable as I start to build my next company.  I intend for this transition to happen so easy that when I leave my current position, I will be able to keep my current salary level or increase it by making the move.   I also intend to create a clear and successful path back into the video game world.  I miss the video game industry every day and would like to go back into this area while I start to grow my own company.  While I am in my current situation, I intend to create a happy, healthy and successful situation while I am here.   This is very important.  I must focus on my current situation until I can make my move.

Home – I intend for my new home to be a healing and positive place for everyone that enters my space.  I intend for this place to be my sanctuary. 

Love life – I intend to continue on my path towards meeting my person.  I have such a clear version of this person and our relationship.  I know what his energy feels like and I know this will be a lifelong love. Until I meet this person, I will continue on my quest for self-love and self-discovery.   And I will have more fun in life!  This year I have not focused enough on having fun.  This is something that needs to change!    I am actually feeling really powerful and settled in this area.  Once I meet my person, marriage and a baby are soon after.

I keep thinking back about my 5 year plan I came up with 2 years ago.

Year 1 – school for marketing management

Year 2 – Go FTE

Year 3 – new home and car

Year 4 – meet my person

Year 5 – marriage and a baby

I am hitting year 3 and everything is happening so fast!   I will forever create 5 year plans because they happen.  It’s a magical way to set your intentions.  

Happy new moon to everyone!  Let’s make this a special year!!!!

Sorry it's been so long!

What a whirlwind last couple of months!

I don't even know where to begin. Tomorrow is my birthday and I have been doing a lot of reflecting lately on the last year and with all honesty I can say..... This year has been one of the best years of my life!

Let me see if I can break it down a bit.

Health- My body is my temple. I have been more active and loving towards my body this year. I have been working out on a constant basis and really taking care of myself. The most important area of growth over the last year for me was my changes in eating habits. Starting on the journey towards a more RAW and vegan diet has been very exciting and the most loving thing I have ever done for myself. My stomach never hurts and I feel like I have unlimited energy all day long. I no longer drink any kind of caffeine and mentally I am in such a strong place and to me it all relates to the changes in my diet. My body is rewarding me so much with all these changes.
On a side note to my health is how much I have grown in terms of my relationship with food. I no longer see it as in the same light. I have really challenge myself to take a different approach with food. Food is no longer a reward in my mind or an excuse. It is simply something I need to live and something that I need to monitor but in a very loving way. I now question everything I eat every time I eat and there is nothing but love for the process. I no longer have the addiction towards food I once had. It is a stable relationship with room to grow!

Work- This last year has been amazing for my career. I finally feel like I found my place in life at the moment. I am in an industry I love! I am in a large corporation I love! I am in a job I love! And I am on a team I love! I know work has it's ups and downs but for me this year has been about proving to myself that I am smart enough to be successful. I finally gave myself permission to be an adult on the job and I am being rewarded beyond belief. I have overcome so many challenges in my career and setbacks that it feels good to finally be in a place of pure joy, growth and excitement over the present and future! And I even got a HUGE promotion at work this month. What an amazing journey!

Life- I guess this is where everything else goes. I have been working on myself over this last year and I can see so much progress in myself. I have been meeting every Saturday morning with a group of ladies I adore and we have all grown so much! It's amazing to see how my relationships have changed over the last year thanks to the wisdom of all these women. I know I have learned to be truly present, I have learned to be patient and I have learned to be dependable. I feel more open to trusting myself, other people and fate. I think one of the best lessons I have learned over the last year is to be truly happy spending time alone. I am my own best friend. While I have an amazing group of friends, family and a wonderful support system, I also know that I am truly all I need in life. It's so different than where I was just a year ago. Such progress!

I am sure there are a million more lessons, events and amazing changes but this is all I can think of for now. I am glad to be back online and updating my blog.

One sad note for me is that I will be missing the Vida Vegan Con blogging conference this year. I was really looking forward to meeting other Vegan and RAW food bloggers but I promise I will try to be at the next one!