I am spending New Years Eve in my own space this year doing my intention ritual. I am looking forward to making my space cozy with special treats for the evening and light my special candles. I am going to present to 2015 because this year marks the start to some intense transformation changes for me. I am letting go of what I think I should be doing and will be guided by what my soul and the universe want for me. I am finally ready to embrace this new life and I know it's time.
It will be an interesting year because all of these changes will be subtle and beautiful. It's going to be a return to my true self. I will still be working in the corporate world. I will still be living in my wonderful condo and having dinner with friends. But on a deeper level, I will be moving towards my new future on a daily basis.
One thing that started this new transformation for 2015 was I signed up for Rachael Maddox's Magic 17 Intensive course. I found while looking for some guidance at the end of November. I knew things in my life needed to change but I had no idea what direction to go in. None of my attempts to change my job situation were successful so I was just sitting in the moment and waiting. I found Rachael's course and I was drawn to sign up. We had a very interesting initial chat on the phone and I said that I wanted to take her course but I knew in the back of my mind that for me to attend her course and be ready for the next stage in my life I would need much more free time than I had at my current situation. Within 1 week of signing up for her class, I had interviewed and been offered my new job. I made my dedication to the new life I knew I wanted to move towards but I had no idea how I was going to do within my current situation. I only knew that my soul would be screaming if I had let this course pass me by.
Sometimes the divine works that way. I had to be ready to jump off the cliff before I could see the cliff I needed to jump off. I finally listened to my soul and spirit that had been telling me for a long time my life was not working for them. And life feels like it is falling into place.
It's not without it's challenges. I must admit my hermit side is very strong right now. I am not getting out as much as I should be. I have been processing a lot of my history to clear it out of my energy field and this is a painful process to do it when you have people around you but to do it when you are isolating is very hard.
However, I am so grateful for the chance to do it alone. I am not sure I would ever fully be able to go this deep and this far into myself if I was not alone. I feel like this part of the pilgrimage. I am on my hero path and right now it is isolated and dark but there is finally a light up ahead. I can see the end of this stage and I am so grateful to be almost out of it.
