Thursday, December 08, 2022

Hanging with my plants

I have been spending the mornings in my greenhouse.  It's quickly becoming my favorite part of the day.  I check on the plants, talk to them and play music while Lollie sleeps in her bed.  

Today we are listening to Nat King Cole.  


There is such a peace in my heart when I am out in the garden.  I hope everyone finds this feeling in life.  It's incredibly. 


Sunday, December 04, 2022

Feels good to blog again

 I have to admit, I missed Blogger.  I love this format so much.  I started my first blog in 2000 and I am still at it!

This weekend has been filled with friends.  It feels good to see people again but its also a little strange.  I forget how long it has been since I have seen anyone.  So much to catch up on and go over.  I love seeing everyone but I have to say, I get exhausted when its over.  Like fall asleep at 5 o'clock at night tired.   It's a good muscle for me to use since sales will start up again in a few months and that means many more social interactions.  

It's also interesting to see my vulnerability show up when I am with people.  I can no longer pretend that people don't hurt me.  I used to think I was immune to caring but now I realize, that I just carry the pain around.  So instead, I am showing my vulnerable side so that people know I do care and I do get hurt by things they say or do.  I am not immune, I am just used to living with trauma and pain.  Which I think is one of the things that caused me to become so sick.  Let the healing begin!

I am off to a birthday breakfast with friends.  Then to pre-sprout more flowers for the spring time.  I am quickly coming up to my travel day so I need to get as much done as I can while I am gone.  That way, the flowers will wake up and be ready for pots when I return.  

Have a beautiful day!

Saturday, December 03, 2022

a little dirt under my fingernails

 It snowed last night and I woke up to a white morning.  

It was not a ton of snow and should be gone soon.  It made for a fun morning of heating up the greenhouse and prepping new trays for some anemones and ranunculus. Lollie really enjoys the snow so she got to zoom all over.  

I checked on some of my prize dahlias and they are doing great!  I might even have some rare ones for sale this spring. (shhhh.... I'm aleady getting messages) 

I am about to spend three weeks away from the city farm and I think it will be good for me but always scary.  I haven't left my house much since getting diagnosed with cancer.  It's always stressful for me to leave my doctors for very long.  But I am long overdue for an East Coast adventure and I will have Lollie with me which is going to help my anxiety.

So until I leave,  I will be with dirt under my nails as I work in the greenhouse.  I will then clean up and visit with friends and family.  I am keeping my bubble very small this year.  Still living like my life depends on it.

I am ready to send this  year off!