Last year at this time, I lost my best friend Shaun Taylor.
It has taken me almost a year to fully realize how much this is going to affect my life for many years to come. This type of loss never ends. Every moment of the day feels like a reminder of how much I miss him. I often have trouble expressing my emotions and this situation is no different. For the last year I have been pushing myself to put these feelings out of my mind. I became so focused on my company and then my break up and then the move and then.... and then.... and then.....
But now, I am stepping back to realize how great of a loss this is for me and all the people that loved Shaun. Every moment of my life for the last year has carried this loss with me. I have felt more alone and empty in life this year than I ever experienced in the past. It's strange how something like a loss can affect every single situation in your life, even if you are not aware of it.
I am dedicating my company to Shaun. He was the first person I talked too when I realized I wanted to create intention products. Every candle I pour is full of love for Shaun and keeping his memory alive.
I can not tell you the sadness I feel right now. All I want is a hug from him or someone else close enough to me to realize that my emotions run a lot deeper than I could ever describe in my blog.
It has taken me almost a year to fully realize how much this is going to affect my life for many years to come. This type of loss never ends. Every moment of the day feels like a reminder of how much I miss him. I often have trouble expressing my emotions and this situation is no different. For the last year I have been pushing myself to put these feelings out of my mind. I became so focused on my company and then my break up and then the move and then.... and then.... and then.....
But now, I am stepping back to realize how great of a loss this is for me and all the people that loved Shaun. Every moment of my life for the last year has carried this loss with me. I have felt more alone and empty in life this year than I ever experienced in the past. It's strange how something like a loss can affect every single situation in your life, even if you are not aware of it.
I am dedicating my company to Shaun. He was the first person I talked too when I realized I wanted to create intention products. Every candle I pour is full of love for Shaun and keeping his memory alive.
I can not tell you the sadness I feel right now. All I want is a hug from him or someone else close enough to me to realize that my emotions run a lot deeper than I could ever describe in my blog.
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