2012 has turned into my year of saying yes. I am saying yes to every invitation I receive. I am saying yes to trying all those activities I have always wanted to do. And I am saying Yes to myself. Yes, it is OK to take care of yourself when you are sick instead of pushing to meet deadlines that are simply not working for you at the moment.
This has been a very fun and exciting start to the new year for me and I am excited about what saying Yes might lead too. I know it will lead to more fun and happiness in my life which was lacking for almost all of my 20's. I have finally hit the age where I don't really care anymore what other people think I should do, or even what the small part of my brain thinks I should do. I want to keep experiencing life and living as much as I can because life is short.
So tonight I am off to see a new friends band. Tomorrow is my book club with a group of ladies that inspire and encourage me in life. This weekend I have a date with my nephew that I am so excited about. And maybe one night I might take myself out for a nice cocktail and a good book. Because I am also saying Yes to myself!
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Beautiful to Me
It's been an intense last few weeks. Not so much because of outside situations but more of an internal situation. I have been given the opportunity to really work and change the way I perceive myself against what is the truth. I know this sounds cryptic and possibly silly. But I have certain things that are blocking me from moving to the next level in my life and until I truly face those issues, I will be stuck in the past.
So right now I am learning to be comfortable with the idea that I am beautiful and perfect just the way I am at this moment. What a hard concept!!!
I simply can not see it. I can't understand how this concept can apply to everyone that I love except for myself. I want to resort back to my old ways of constantly thinking something is wrong with me and pushing myself to fix it, to fix me.
What if I don't need to be fixed? Then what will I spend my time thinking about? I have a great job, a great family, a great group of friends in my life. I make enough money to be able to buy myself whatever I need. I am settled, happy and excited about my future. What part of this situation is not beautiful? I am interesting, smart, constantly learning and challenging myself. I take amazing care of myself. I spend time and effort taking myself to Spas and really trying to love my body. So what is it that makes myself unable to see myself as beautiful?
I have yet to answer this. I am working hard to uncover my block and be able to move through it. I am spending time to assist me to this next level because I know once I reach this place of being beautiful, the world is going to get a whole lot more amazing. I just need to sit with the fact that I am struggling at the moment.
So right now I am learning to be comfortable with the idea that I am beautiful and perfect just the way I am at this moment. What a hard concept!!!
I simply can not see it. I can't understand how this concept can apply to everyone that I love except for myself. I want to resort back to my old ways of constantly thinking something is wrong with me and pushing myself to fix it, to fix me.
What if I don't need to be fixed? Then what will I spend my time thinking about? I have a great job, a great family, a great group of friends in my life. I make enough money to be able to buy myself whatever I need. I am settled, happy and excited about my future. What part of this situation is not beautiful? I am interesting, smart, constantly learning and challenging myself. I take amazing care of myself. I spend time and effort taking myself to Spas and really trying to love my body. So what is it that makes myself unable to see myself as beautiful?
I have yet to answer this. I am working hard to uncover my block and be able to move through it. I am spending time to assist me to this next level because I know once I reach this place of being beautiful, the world is going to get a whole lot more amazing. I just need to sit with the fact that I am struggling at the moment.
Friday, February 03, 2012
1st vacation of the year coming up!
Next week marks my first vacation of the year. It also happens to be the first vacation I have taken in what feels like years.
I will be traveling back to the Midwest to visit a dear friend that recently lost her husband. It's not the best circumstances to take a vacation but it will be fun none the less. I will be spending one night with my friend at a fancy spa. More details to come!
I hope it is better quality than the 5 star Spa I used to work at that was more like a 1 star spa. Fingers crossed!
I had to take a break from Hot Yoga this week as I got sick. It has been a bummer but I can still feel and see the difference in my body that this adventure has made. What is really strange is that I am returning to the size I was when I was a teenager and having dreams that are very similar to when I was younger. I wonder how much "memory" is stored in our muscles, fat and organs that would release when I start to do things similar to when I was younger? I am losing weight but more importantly I am building muscle and look very healthy. My body is now becoming a normal size. I even went to the Doc this week and my blood pressure is at an all time low!!! Not that I had high blood pressure but it's even better now. I love that healthy is becoming a priority in life.
I will be traveling back to the Midwest to visit a dear friend that recently lost her husband. It's not the best circumstances to take a vacation but it will be fun none the less. I will be spending one night with my friend at a fancy spa. More details to come!
I hope it is better quality than the 5 star Spa I used to work at that was more like a 1 star spa. Fingers crossed!
I had to take a break from Hot Yoga this week as I got sick. It has been a bummer but I can still feel and see the difference in my body that this adventure has made. What is really strange is that I am returning to the size I was when I was a teenager and having dreams that are very similar to when I was younger. I wonder how much "memory" is stored in our muscles, fat and organs that would release when I start to do things similar to when I was younger? I am losing weight but more importantly I am building muscle and look very healthy. My body is now becoming a normal size. I even went to the Doc this week and my blood pressure is at an all time low!!! Not that I had high blood pressure but it's even better now. I love that healthy is becoming a priority in life.
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