This lady needs new clothes

I finally hit the moment where I am swimming in my clothing.  There is more fabric than my body frame can handle anymore. 
I have to say that really changing my body shape and size has been a very strange adventure.  In some ways it has made me feel weak and small.  I know this is not true since I am changing my body by lifting weights 6 days a week and I am actually incredibly strong.  But I am smaller and more toned and it's been a long time since I was this size.  It's just weird to feel like the shrinking lady.

I also hired a personal trainer.  It's a large investment and not one I am taking lightly.  I am investing in my health and spending hard earned money on changing my life.   I don't normally spend money on things like a trainer but I realized that I wanted the extra help to really change my lifestyle and to help me train on how to properly lift weights.   Having a trainer has been amazing!  She is tough and yet super fun.  She has helped me to work on some of my problem areas and keeps me moving forward.   At this point I am working out 6 days a week.  2 days a week I meet with  my trainer but the rest of the week it's up to me to not be lazy and do at least 45 mins of work a day.  

Focusing on my health has also allowed me to slow down the stress about work situation.  I am more focused on my life outside the office which allows me to come into the office, perform miracles for the marketing department and then go sweat my tush off.   It's helping me to be balanced and grateful for my wonderful job and company. And to prepare for the right thing to happen next.... Which I know will happen!

Going Strong

I am 5 visits away from Mayorship at my gym on Foursquare! 

That's how often I have been going.  I have not felt this good about myself since high school when I was also weight lifting.  I know it sounds strange to love weight lifting but I truly do.  When I leave work I head straight for the gym.  I know I will be there a minimum of 30 minutes of workout time so it's an easy amount of time to plan for everyday.  Usually I end up there for at least 1.5 hours but I also have my minimum level I require of myself each day. 
When I am not at the gym, I have filled my phone up with tumblr sites for lady weight lifters and healthy positive sites to keep me motivated during the day.  I know I may never look like most of the women posting images of themselves online nor do I want to look like a lot of the women weight lifters but it inspires me that there are other women out there like me that really enjoy lifting weights and seeing how the body responds.

So far I have gone down a dress size and my body looks different.  I am not losing so much weight but gaining muscle and sculpting the body. 

Besides that, not much else is going on.  I am interviewing for other jobs at my company.  I am trying to get out more and meet new people. And I am still in school.  I really look forward to this summer when I will have my life back.

Calming Down

Things have calmed down a bit since I last updated.   Work is settled for at least another year.  While I ended up deciding not to take the new job, I did negotiate a new job title, a new job scope and a raise.  This was a huge moment for me because I have never felt empowered enough in the office to stand up for myself and state that my work level had increased in terms of amount and quality and that I deserved to make more money.  So my manager and I are in a great place right now and I am happy that I was able to find a solution to my flux that leaves me energized and happy.

In terms of my health I am still working out 5 to 6 days a week.  I have not been this focused about health in a long time and it feels great to be back into a routine.  I am still focused on weight lifting and sculpting my body.  I am starting to see real progress as I move into month 2 of this new love in my life.  The first month my scale did not budge.  I could feel my body changing a bit but just in the last week - wham!  I've dropped 10 pounds, 1 skirt size and my body is changing shape all over.   I am really getting inspired by women weight lifting Blogs and Tumblr photo's.  These images provide me enough motivation to get my tush to the gym.  I will never look perfect but the more I can sculpt my body via weight lifting the better I will look.

School is almost over which is good.  I have not been having a very good time with it this quarter.  I am simply too busy with work.  But it has been very interesting and I have met some great people.  I am looking forward to getting my life back once I am done.