I have been away from my home for almost a month now. My great uncle died in June and since I already had a vacation planned, I came out early and just stayed. This has been one of the most challenging decisions I have made lately.
There is no comfort in the loss of my routine. I feel stuck out here because I am not moving forward back in Seattle. I watch people that I loved moving forward in their lives and I feel helpless. I am a mixed bag today because part of me wants to return home and move forward, but a larger part of me wants to stay on the East Coast and just ignore my life.
I am fighting very hard not to sabotage my life because I am emotionally out of balance right now. It's an old habit that is not going away. I am working hard to fight it but some days I am weak. Hopefully the comfort of my routine will save me before I mess up too much.
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