New Moon

Today mark a powerful new moon in Virgo.

I am spending the day trying to get clear of what I want in life and in my work life.   I am also approaching my birthday and starting to think about  the last year and  how I have changed and grown.  It’s been a very painful year.   This statement about sums up how my last year has been.  Painful Growth.   But with painful growth comes true change and closer.   If it was not painful, I would not have been able to walk away otherwise.   

So here I sit on the new moon before my birthday and I am starting to think about what changes I want to create in my life.   I want to set my intentions around a couple of core places.

Health – I intend for this new year to be a healthy year.  I intend for my body to start to match my energy level and for me to be seen as a healthy and beautiful fit lady.   I intend to continue on my quest to become the healthiest version of myself that I can be and to keep eating healthy, working out and putting my self care first.  I love this strong and soon to be fit body and I look forward to seeing the changes that will happen as I continue to nurture myself.

Work – I intend to create an easy and successful transition to being self-employed one day.   I intend for my current job to remain stable as I start to build my next company.  I intend for this transition to happen so easy that when I leave my current position, I will be able to keep my current salary level or increase it by making the move.   I also intend to create a clear and successful path back into the video game world.  I miss the video game industry every day and would like to go back into this area while I start to grow my own company.  While I am in my current situation, I intend to create a happy, healthy and successful situation while I am here.   This is very important.  I must focus on my current situation until I can make my move.

Home – I intend for my new home to be a healing and positive place for everyone that enters my space.  I intend for this place to be my sanctuary. 

Love life – I intend to continue on my path towards meeting my person.  I have such a clear version of this person and our relationship.  I know what his energy feels like and I know this will be a lifelong love. Until I meet this person, I will continue on my quest for self-love and self-discovery.   And I will have more fun in life!  This year I have not focused enough on having fun.  This is something that needs to change!    I am actually feeling really powerful and settled in this area.  Once I meet my person, marriage and a baby are soon after.

I keep thinking back about my 5 year plan I came up with 2 years ago.

Year 1 – school for marketing management

Year 2 – Go FTE

Year 3 – new home and car

Year 4 – meet my person

Year 5 – marriage and a baby

I am hitting year 3 and everything is happening so fast!   I will forever create 5 year plans because they happen.  It’s a magical way to set your intentions.  

Happy new moon to everyone!  Let’s make this a special year!!!!

So Grateful

This morning I woke up grateful. 

I have so much to be thankful for in my current life and I need to take the time to remember this.  My health is in good shape thanks to the years of dedication I have spent taking care of myself.   My job is hard but so important to my growth.   I am growing every day in this job.  Sometimes growth is hard and I am pushed to my limits but overall, this is a great place for me to be at the moment.

I am also grateful for all the growth and change that has happened over the few years as I have learn to love myself and accept who I am.  I am living at a level of peace I never knew possible.  No one told me as I was growing up that at some point in my life I would be able to create my dreams and that I would be able to love myself for exactly who I am.  Yet these are exactly the lesson I have learned over the last few years of my life.   These lessons have come with some level of pain and sadness but overall I am so grateful for getting to this place of comfort and ease. 

The other thing I am grateful for is my level of faith.  This level has grown as I have let go of trying to control, understand or dictate what should be happening in my life.  I am now just letting go and letting the universe show me what is next in this journey.   This single action has helped me to become more grateful because I am starting to see the divine work in real time.  People are coming into my life for a reason and leaving for a reason and I am no longer beating myself up for these goodbyes.   I am grateful for these goodbyes because I have also learned that better things are on their way.  

One thing I am super excited for is that I move into my new apartment in less than 1 month.   I am excited, fearful, nervous and relieved.   I can’t wait to get into my own space and just settle into this new phase in my life.   I am excited to see how my life changes by this single action.   I am starting to see how stale my energy has been in the last few years because the Universe has been waiting for me to make this move but I was fighting it this whole time.  Not anymore.  It’s now time for me to change and grow even more.   2014 has been this huge growth year for me.  It has not been gentle but has come suddenly and swiftly.  It is truly the year of the horse for me!  Swift, powerful but also majestic.

Soon I will be hosting dinner parties in my new space, sitting on my comfy new furniture and sitting on my large deck enjoying an evening drink with a good friend.  I will be making candles and potions in my kitchen and really returning to myself in the comfort of my own space.  

Dreams and the moon

I took advantage of the super moon and full moon on Sunday to get really clear about my manifesting list and what I want my future to look like.   Because I want an integrated life,  my vision included marriage, my life's work, my home and even what my vacations will look like.  All of these combine into this vision of my future that makes me feel like life makes sense and is peaceful.   This was the clearest I have ever been in what my future will look like.  I sat outside in the moonlight with my candles and wrote down what this future looked like and just focused on how I felt while I wrote down what I want to manifest.   I have my list wrapped up and under my pillow.   On Friday I will burn my list to release it since Friday is the day of Venus. 

This morning in my dreams the Two of Cups card came up.  In the dream someone was saying that I had a little more work to do but that this was my future.  They showed me that the two of cups card was the next card after my current situation.   I woke up feeling secure.  This dream makes so much sense.  I am still in the process of changing and now is not the right time.  I understand that.  But I also feel relieved to know this person is coming and soon.   The two of cups is my next phase.  There is no doubt in my mind this is my truth.   So until this phase, I will keep working on myself.  I will focus on my health, my job and becoming the best version of myself I can become. 

The 2 of Cups include the reunion of soulmates who have come together in this lifetime to fulfill commitments begun in previous lives. An almost immediate friendship blossoms into romantic love, and a committed relationship soon progresses to discussions about living together or marriage. This is a love that is reciprocated on all levels and in all ways, without the complications of pride or ego involvements.   

In other exciting news, once I move into my new space, my potions shop will be open for business again.  I can't wait to get back to creating Intention products!   I will be making candles, bath salts and other fun products for my friends and family.   I will be creating new recipes and products in the comfort of my new space.   This thought makes my heart soar.

Finding my Health

I am trying to find my health in a sea of too many hours at the office, too many appointments when I am not working and trying to maintain my fitness routine.    I am having some serious issues with my digestion and I can feel it hurting my whole body.   I feel off all day long and I no longer want to eat but I am also hungry all the time because my system is not working properly.  Ugh.   It’s been a hard couple of months in terms of my physical health.

I am working on my energy level and I will say, this is really starting to open up and change.   I can see how my thoughts are creating my reality and how my feelings are connected to my thoughts.   I have not been this in touch with my energy and ability to co-create since I was 21 and moved to NYC.   I am really excited about this means for my future.   I no longer feel tied to karma or the past.  I feel free and refreshed.  My energy is clean and I can attract that which I want in life.  

The ten of Pentacles card has been following lately.   Every reading it comes up.  Every discussion I have with friends that are interested in the tarot,  this card and image comes up for me.   I am opening up to this card becoming reality and I can truly feel it happening.  My life will be very different in one year from now.  I will be living the dream that I am starting to see in my mind.  And it all relates to the 10 of pentacles as well as the two of cups.

The Ten of Pentacles stands for the ultimate in worldly and material success. Sometimes I jokingly call it the "fat cat" card because it reminds me of the aura of prosperity that surrounds wealthy men and women of business. Wealth and affluence are yours.

The Two of Cups, here is the very picture of romantic and sexual attraction. The energy between these two is almost palpable. The Two of Cups shows the beauty and power that is created when two come together. This is the card that lovers want to see, and, in fact, the Two of Cups is the minor arcana equivalent of the Lovers in many ways.

So even though I am having trouble with my health, my life is moving forward.  I know the health stuff is just temporary and only happening to help me get to the next level of my fitness goals.   I just need to create the space to allow my body to heal.   Once I get into my apartment, all this will change.  I will have my space and time to really heal.   I can’t wait!