Starting Over

I am so sorry it has been a while since I last posted.
Things have been very busy and wonderful around these parts.

The Thread show was great. I met so many people and really connected with my customers. I really hope that everyone who purchased a candle at the event will share their stories with me as time goes on.
I also meet some really amazing designers and was able to trade candles for great items. I will be adding links in the next few weeks.

I also had the Rainier Club slumber party last weekend. That was so much fun!
It was great to be sitting in a room full of wonderful women, in my PJ's and talking girl talk.
I felt so lucky to be a part of the night and it also felt great to share my candles with everyone who attended the event.
At the slumber party there was a Tarot card reader, giving everyone readings. I loved it!
It has been too long since someone gave me a reading. I am usually on the other end.

I am almost giddy about what the reader said. I will provide more details in the next few months!

One area that I feel really good about today is the fact that I have joined weight watchers again. Like many other people in this world, I need to learn to eat better. In so many different area's of my life I am truly content, and I have always felt really grounded in my body. I think joining Weight Watchers for me is more about the structure and community that anything else. As I get older I have realized that I like structure. I like getting up at the same time every morning and knowing what my day looks like. As my life becomes more full with plans, candles, work, company issues, I began to realize that there were certain areas that I felt I was getting weak on. One of these area's is my weight. I also started to think about how much I have created or manifested this amazing and happy life I am living right now so it seemed so natural to tackle the issue of my weight. I have been working through issues surrounding working, relationships, family, self worth, friendships, money.... You name it, I have been working through it and feeling better everyday.

I also was inspired to create a healthy weight candle for my journey. This candle will help me become more aware when I eat dinner and inspire me to become healthier everyday.

I will update on my weight loss journey and let you all know when I have discovered something amazing. This is just another self journey that I am ready to take on and learn from!



Spring has come around to these parts and much of Sunday was spent in the garden. I have a new bed to plant tall flowers. I need an Evergreen plant that will get over 6 feet tall if anyone has a suggestion.

This weekend was also Arts Walk in Olympia complete with a parade and loads of fun costumes. I had not been to the parade in almost four years but with the recent arrival of my mother to Olympia, I agreed to go downtown and watch it. I am so glad I did. Olympia has such a wonderful community. There were babies and grandparents in the parade. It was so beautiful to see everyone having such a fun time. The children colored the streets with sidewalk chalk and the older people talked with friends. There were dogs and face painting.

I also made candles this weekend and cooked.

Today is the calm before the ?

Today is my last day before my big Thread show.
It's funny. Before the Crave party I was scared and panic. This time around I feel calm and OK with the fact that I don't have over 100 candles to take, or that I don't have every candle I make or that I have about 100 things to do today before the event tomorrow.

None of these events are stressing me out because I know what I have is perfect and that no matter what..... I will have a good time.

This will also be another learning experience for me. I learned from my last show and I will learn from this show. Plus, I can't wait to meet new customers and make some new friends.

For me owning Odessa's Herbals and making the products has given me a sense of confidence I have never had before. There is something about creating a product that uses my expert knowledge and my passions. This something has helped me to feel complete, whole and truly happy. I am not just me anymore, I am a person who is so full of love and passion for life that I want to share it with the world. I am also able to take on activities that in the past would have scared the living daylights out of me, I now can take those activities on and not get scared. I can face the unknown and feel good about myself.

Plus, I have the added bonus of making a new candle for each situation and knowing by me lighting the candle that everything will turn out right and I can now help another person.

Energy always amazes me

So I had my energy healing last night and I have to say, Elaine amazes me every time we talk. At first when I begin working with Elaine I had experienced some not so great energy workers and I had closed myself off for the most part. But, working with Elaine has allowed me to not only open up about the unknown and unseen but I am actually experiencing events that I never knew I could.

Elaine helped me to better understand a relationship from my past. I could not figure out why this person would never leave my life. Elaine was not only able to pinpoint a story that best described our relationship, but she was able to help me release the energy cords connected to this person.

Today I feel free and light. I am excited for the changes and the future. I no longer feel the pain around this person. I feel at peace for my actions and I have a better understanding of why things did not work out. It makes perfect sense on why I wanted to travel and explore instead of settling down and being in a relationship.

My heart feels healed and I know things will only get better.

I did it!

My good friend Jeff came over this morning and helped me to create a Soy Wax Blend that I love!

Sometimes a good friend is what you need the most and today, Jeff saved me big time.

Plus, I can't ever be cranky around Jeff. He won't allow it.

So I have been making candles all day and will continue into the night. I must buy more molds due to the Soy taking longer to cool but I am so happy with switching to something all natural that I can't imagine ever going back.

Sunday

Is it terrible to feel uninspired?
Today I woke up and just feel kinda cranky. I am not sure why but today just feels like an off day.

I think I will work in my garden and ask the universe for advice.

I have a dilemma with my candles. I am starting to make a 100% soy pillar but it is just such a different wax than the food grade Paraffin I have been using. Soy is softer, not shiny and does not make candles I love.....Yet.....
But the benefits of Soy are greater than the Paraffin so I will keep trying.
Plus, my market keeps asking for it.

Sometimes it just takes time to find the perfect mix. This is the experiment phase of creating a product.

Change is good.

I just need to take some time to do something else for a few hours.

Good Day Sunshine!

The sun is out in the Northwest!

What a wonderful day to wake up and see the rainbows across my bedroom. I have a lovely little crystal ball that I hung in my office to bring me luck and light. This morning it was glowing!

I am pretty busy and calm right now in life. My energy feels like it is at a really high vibration and I am filled with love. I am going to get an energy session with Elaine next week to work on cutting some more cords that are attaching me to the past. I can't wait for this session. Every time I work with Elaine, I get the most amazing results. Over time I have been able to see how much she has helped me to move forward.

At work this week I have been listening to Debbie Ford's Hay House Radio Show. Debbie Ford works with our dark sides and teaches people how to face what they fear, love it and start to make better choices. This has been a real eye opener for me. It feels good to admit my dark side and then face it so that it becomes light again. I think that's why I wanted to meet with Elaine. I have come to realize that there is some anger I have been ignoring and I am ready to release it.

Should make for an interesting week!

I had the best time last weekend!

I went to San Fran for the weekend. It was a combination of work and pleasure, but mostly pleasure. This was a college reunion for a group of my best friends and a chance for me to catch up with some design folks I admire. Every time my college friends get together, we laugh, cook amazing meals, talk, play games, enjoy each other's company and there are always hugs!

I was able to stop by one of my favorite design studios, Neutron and pick up a copy of their amazing new book on trends and design called Zag. I met Neutron a few years ago while helping to set up the Brand Gap conference in Portland.
Another amazing person I saw was Jody Turner. She is my hero and mentor in so many ways. Jody Turner is a trend expert, a business woman and a compassionate future leader. If you have not heard Jody speak or check out her website, I highly recommend her work. She will give you hope for our future generations.

This next month is going to be a busy one for me. I have the Thread show coming up in less than two weeks. I have the Rainier Club slumber party. I just donated some candles to the DIFFA ( Design Industries Foundation Fighting Aids) for their upcoming event, Glam2. And I have the in home fund raiser in May.

Another wonderful person I met with was Vera in San Fran. We had a really interesting discussion about energy. Our discussion helped me to realize how all the work I have done over the last few years to rid myself of old pain has worked. I can go through the day without one negative thought about myself. It is such a wonderful feeling to realize when you are in the perfect energy space. I am able to release desires and trust that the universe will provide.