My decision last week to avoid dating has caused the
universe to throw situations my way.
Where were all these people a month ago?
But I am staying strong in my decision to avoid everything
until Jan 2015. My heart can’t take any
more pain and I am just not in a space where I want to deal with other people’s
confusion over what they want. This is
a huge step in my confidence building. I
am putting my needs first. I need to
take care of myself and not let someone get close that is not on the same page
as me.
This means I am fighting the urge to communicate with my
people from my past. I am focusing on my
future and what I want. I am holding
strong the notion that I will one day find that big love. I know it’s close. I am using this time as my yummy time before
I settle down. Instead of living in
desperation I am living as-if. I am
living like these are the last 6 months of my life where I will be single. I am making plans of all the things I want to
do before I settle down. Classes I might
want to take, places I want to visit, trips I want to take. I am preparing for my big love with excitement
and love for my life as it is. It’s a
total change of mindset for me and I am enjoying it. I realized in the last couple of days that I
this was my missing piece for my life right now.
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