Symbiotic

This weekend was intense and so very powerful.  I can barely speak today as I am still swirling from my time  with master mentor and coach Jen L. from the East Coast.  We had so many moments where magic showed itself.  From Owls singing to me as I built my threshold altar after Jen mentioned sometimes she could hear owls but not often, to me writing things in my journal that she said to me in the exact same way 1 hour later, to her reading me a poem that she has been obsessed with for 3 days that related to my journey.  She kept saying she could not figure out why she was so obsessed with the poem and suddenly it all made sense.   I had been sharing my magic with her before I even arrived to the Island. 
Every time we turned around there were moments that were beautiful and perfect.

She heard my big dream and knows it is going to manifest.  She can she see it as clearly as I can.  She also witnessed all my fears and we released them.

Today I am Bone Tired.  So tired I can't even talk.   I feel like I ran a marathon this weekend.  I wish I could just sit at the beach in silence and journal because I discovered so much about myself, my heart and my journey this weekend. 

The Threshold has been crossed.
I am no longer the same.
I left my old journey behind and I stand here in a new place.

I am so ready for this BIG DREAM.

New moon

Friday night is a very powerful night for setting intentions.   I just finished my ritual and now I am off to a salt bath then bed.  I am feeling blessed and magical.

Cup of Tea and A Magical Island Adventure

With the new moon and eclipse happening this week, I can feel myself crossing over a threshold of sorts.  I am entering into a new phase in my life and the universe is throwing doors open for me and welcoming me to my life's purpose and path.  I feel like pinching myself everyday.

While there is a large part of me that is excited about what's happening, it's also exhausting.  I made the decision to clean my life and energy field out.  It's been clearing up quickly and lessons have been coming fast.  I am lucky in that I know what's happening so I am not fighting any of these amazing changes.   I am allowing for these big life changes to happen and I am grateful for them but geez, I could use a week at the beach to just recharge.  This has been the most exhausting work I have ever done.

On the other hand, doors are flying open and I am being invited to meet the top of the top in the industry I am about to enter.  People are entering into my life and inviting me to work with them in a way that I have never experienced.  My life is seriously on the verge of change in the best way.  My dreams are quickly becoming reality.  It almost feels like I can't dream fast enough to keep up with how much stuff is manifesting right now.

I had the best massage the other day from someone new.  She said to me early on, "You are like a seed about to burst with new life".   I can feel it.   I said, that's funny because I am about to start a small new little company.  She said "Nothing is going to be small about this company.  It's going to be way bigger and more amazing than you even realize".   I almost started crying with excitement and fear.

I am ready to walk the path that I know I should be walking.  I am ready for my dreams to become reality.  I am so ready to launch this baby into the world.

I am preparing for a magical adventure this weekend on one of our local island with a very powerful lady from the East Coast.  She has been preparing for our session all week.  I can't wait to see what kind of magic we can do together!   I have stones, candles, oils, flowers and herbs all ready to take with me.   I am ready to cross my threshold and enter into something new.  

Update On The Everyday Stuff

I realized this morning that I have not updated lately on my everyday life.  So today is dedicated to the normal, the everyday things that make life what it is.

My job is good.  It's exactly what I wanted.  I have a flexible schedule.  I have a better manager and I am back at a company I love.   I come into the office most days but no one is watching me and the clock.   I deliver my work on time and I am given the freedom I need to be the best employee I can be.  Pure Bliss!
And I get to work from home whenever I want.  This is so important to me and my health!

I am slightly overbooked right now in life.   I need to clear my social calendar out a bit because I am feeling the frazzled side come out.   I haven't been able to just relax and read a book lately.  I haven't been writing as much as I need.   But I am doing so much good work right now that I am not worried. And I am connecting with friends so I am not ready to give up the frazzle just yet.

One big decision I made this week is I have decided that I am going to invest in some meal prep services for during the week.  I am so busy that making dinner at night is stressing me out.  I can afford to have meals delivered and if it means that I get to spend more time relaxing and taking care of other things during the week than I am going to invest in that right now.   It feels so good to make this decision.

So next week marks my first week!  I can't wait!
One of the many perks of working in the tech field. 

Cutting Cords

The last few weeks while I have been getting body work and energy work done, everyone kept mentioning some sort of huge energy hook in my left shoulder.   I had no idea what it was in reference too but three different people I work with all mentioned it to me in different sessions.

Today I met with a very powerful mentor of one of my coaches and she not only noticed it but she was able to tell me exactly where this hook came from and why I had it.

WOW.
All I can say is I finally feel free.

I feel healed.
I no longer feel like I am at fault for my past pains which has been a huge block for me.

Is anyone else feeling these changing tides?  So much change happening all around.  I know some people are having a really hard time with it but I feel like all of this stuff that is happening is so cleansing and  beautiful.  But I am ready for true change.  I had given up on the need to control once I hit my Saturn retuning and these last few years have prepared me to be ready to totally cleanse my life.  So all these changes,  all this tense energy, all this pain is being put to good use.  I am going deep into it and coming out stronger.

My best advice to my loved ones around me having a hard time is to go deep and let go.  Just let go of everything.  People, relationships, work, dreams, ego, shoulds/woulds, just go deep and let the universe blow your life up.  Because you will come out new, refreshed and ready to do what you are meant to do.

It's the best thing that will ever happen to you. 

A Little Down Time

Today I need a little down time to recharge.  I have made no plans except to be totally open to see what happens.  So far I have gone from reading to cleaning to art to seeing the beauty in my home with my best fur friend.

This full moon in Virgo was intense in the best way.  The front half of the week was slightly miserable.  Everyone was cranky and life just felt hard.  But Thursday everything had turned around to a love filled world.   I am always amazed at the power of the moon and how sensitive we are to it.

I am feeling like I am back on track after a couple of weeks of feeling off balanced.  It feels good to be grounded again.  I am back to planning my new company.  To my self care routine.  To making art and adding joy in my life.  Ahhhh.  Feels so good to be back on the right track!  I spent this week really connecting with friends.  I needed just a week to see people and talk; to reconnect and share with them.  Just a week to let go and just let life guide me.

This week also marked a lot of healing and releasing.  It was beautiful.  For the first time in years, I have real space in my life thanks to the healing old wounds from the past.  And it all happened in a really gentle and sweet way.   I am so grateful for 2015 and my life.  

Feeling Settled

I am feeling so good today.   I am feeling settled and free.

It's amazing what a little sunshine and calming of the mind can do.  All the discomfort from the last month is gone.  Magic is happening and I am so grateful.

I am seeing old friends and coworkers coming back into my life.  I am showering people with love and making amazing new friends that are aligned with where I am in life right now.  I want to pinch myself because I am on the right path and it feels so good.

The cherry trees are blooming in Seattle and Spring is in full swing.  Tonight is a very powerful full moon in Virgo and it's energy is kicking my tush in a good way.  I need to get focused with my feet on the group.  I have been living a little up in the air lately so I am ready to spend the weekend really getting grounded.

Getting grounded and being present.