I got creative

Ok Universe, today I got creative.

We shall see what happens. I sent my resume to a company that I have wanted to work at for many years. It is smaller than where I am working now and more creative.

It is also in a city I have been trying to move to for awhile.

All day long I have been hearing.... Don't give up.....
And I promise I won't.

So I now ask for a little help and guidance.

Don't give up..... Get Creative

This has been my recent lesson.

All of my worries over my job and career are silly. The truth of the matter is that I have more control over the situation than I am giving myself credit for.
I am not stuck in this position forever.

Now is the time when I should trust my instinct and get creative. I need to put my positive life first instead of falling into a life style that is very out of touch with my own. This is part of my life lesson. I need to walk my own path and stay strong in it.

So I just keep thinking... "Don't give up.... Get creative"

What a divine lesson.

I am going to send my resume out to a few select companies and I am going to start focusing the positive path that I walk. I will also open Odessa's Herbals again. I need to get back to my divine gift that I can share and help other people with.

So if you have any desire for a reading or a candle please let me know.

Contact me by my email and we will set up a time to talk.

What an interesting day

Sometimes I am even shocked when doors close.
Or they become further away that I thought.

But then I also feel like my personal world, the world that lives inside of only me, has become bigger, more open and more intouch with nature.

So it is almost summer and I can't wait!

The northwest may lack winters, it maybe cloudy here for too many days in a row but the summers are amazing and I can't wait to relax!!!!

I will post more pictures this weekend.

Nothing much to report

Today was a good day.
I was able to stay grounded and positive all day long. It felt good and calm. Somedays are just days to relax and be calm and today was that day for me.

I wish that I had more to write but I am so tired I can hardly keep my eyes open.

Do what you love

That's my theme for the day.

Maybe it's because my job is not settling well, or maybe it's because the universe has other things in store for me but my attention has really been focused on the questions of what do I love to do and what am I good at?

I am good with people, I am good at being creative, I am good at reading people and situations, I have a natural interest in business and product development. And I am very interested in the proper balance of work and a life outside of work.

This is were my job and I are not seeing eye to eye. For me to be a productive employee I need to feel happy and settled with my life outside of work. That way I can come into work everyday excited, focused and energized. I now come in thinking, I just left here a little under 12 hours ago and I now have another 10 to spend here before I can go home and basically go straight to bed.

This is not healthy for me and the universe wants me to do what I love.

I will let you all know when it happens but stayed tuned. Something big is going to happen!

Here's to a wonderful day!

Here's what we did today in the yeard. I think it looks amazing and is much easier to maintain. However, no more barefoot gardening!

Wicked Site

I was having lunch on Friday with a group of friends who all went to library school and now all work together. They were talking about good site of data catagory systems....blah blah...

But then one of the turned to me and told me about a site call ETSY.
It is an international craft site where you can post and sell or buy crafts made all over the world.

I LOVED IT!!!!

So I thought I would share it with everyone. Plus it has amazing design features, check out the world map.

I am now going to spend the day out in the sunshine since the northwest has not seen the sun in weeks. I will be gardening and spending the day with my aunt who is leaving tomorrow to return to the east coast.

BOO HOO!!!!

40 hours with 10 hours to go

So, I have now hit 40 hours on my time card. Yep, it is Thursday night and I am about to go to bed. I have 10 more hours to the week and then 48 hours of free time.

It is so weird to think about my life in terms of hours. I have never been so aware of hours. I am not sure I care for hours. In fact, I kind of am ready for the flexible work plan.

But, even though right now my life is not as comfortable as I would like it, I have to admit my level of faith, my intuition and my manifesting beliefs are stronger than ever.
I can feel my new life already.

This is the first time in my life where I not only welcome change, I feel like my energy is really creating something more amazing.

I also talked with Elaine this week who confirmed everything I was feeling and thinking.

I know the direction I am going, I can feel it and I am ready.

Decisions

Here is a passage I turned to this morning when I was thinking about my future.

Decisions/Higher Self

"You're faced with many choices and aren't sure what to do.... Fortunately, your higher self can help you resolve these difficult decisions, especially if you're willing to let some of the balls you juggle drop to the wayside for now. The key to making the best choices is to simply follow your heart and attend only to what you care about right now. Focus on priorities that feed your spirit, and don't become overwhelmed by the demands and expectations of others.

Ask your higher self to help you discern and trust in what requires your attention right now, and be willing to disappoint people. Your higher self assures you that what falls tot he wayside isn't important in the long run, despite the drama of the moment. The message for you is "Don't try to be all things to all people, it's a waste of time, and you'll surely fail."

This is exactly what I am feeling and needing to hear.
Sonia Choquette always has a way of doing that.

So I now ask my runners to help me leave one situation in a positive positive way, and to help me find a better place for me to be.

I also realize that this does not mean any manic quick action right now, but when the right time and moment presents itself I will be ready.

Your Heart's Desire Box

My friend Vera wrote about creating a dream box and then posted what was in her dream box.

At the end she asked the simple, yet, not so simple question of,
"What would be in your dream box"

Here my answers that I posted on her site:


I think my dream box would include:
Moving to Scotland.
Having a job as a design manager.
Owning a farm in the country.
Being married and having children.
Always having at least one dog.
Living an abudant life.
Being surrounded by wonderful friends and family.
Always having my intuition in my life.
Owning my own company.


So I am now turning this question over to my faithful readers.
Would would be in your dream box?


Ps. I feel better already.

Garden Party

Today has been the first day that I have been able to do some gardening this spring. It is a warm and hazy day, almost hot.

While I was in the garden I began to feel very lucky for this wonderful house and yard. I realized that for this garden to be able to survive I must care for it and appreciate it.
So while I was weeding I was sending love to all the herbs, vegetables and fruit trees we have because they are going to provide us with a wonderful amount of food this summer.

The other great part about today is that my dog can be totally off leash at our new house. So while I was weeding, she was walking around the garden checking everything out and tasting some of the plants. We discussed her not eating the blueberries but I know how much she loves blueberries so I am going to have to keep an eye on her about that plant. But it was just wonderful to have her walking around me while I gardened. Plus our yard is very private so I can be outside in my worst outfit and no one will see me. I may not do the nude gardening that the home owner used to do but I will be inclined this summer to garden in my bathing suit!

I am off to drink some cold lime water and get outside to do more work.

HOT YOGA

So this week I tried something new. I went with a dear friend to a hot yoga class.
At first I was worried because I am not known for liking heat, nor have I ever done Yoga before.

But I have to say...... I LOVE HOT YOGA.......

I felt so calm and peaceful afterwards.
Plus I felt detoxed!
The detoxed feeeling just added to wonderful feeling. I walked downtown after the class and had a tomato, basil salad and then went to bed. The whole time I just kept thinking, if I did hot yoga all the time I would only want to eat fruits and veggies because after spending 90 mins. in a really hot place you just want water and natural foods.

I think I will add to my list I made the other day:

11. Hot Yoga twice a week.
12. Start working on my heart's desire to move to Scotland.

Why Scotland?
Because this morning I saw an article about Scotland and my heart did a love flip.
I lived in Scotland a couple of years ago and I loved it. More than anything I have wanted in the last 10 years, moving to Scotland has been my number one desire.

This means, I need to start to research and talk to the people that send me "Move to Scotland" emails and make my dream a reality!!!!!

Slowing down

The excitement over the new job is now wearing off and my conference is all done. I have to admit, I am kind of bummed. I feel an emptiness of sorts. Like I went from a fast moving river to a bog.

I also feel the need to make some changes. Must be spring time!

So instead of moping around I think I will list some changes I would like to make in the next few months. This will help me to stop feeling so blue.

1. Start to exercise at least twice a week.
2. Make more candles.
3. Make more movies.
4. Clean my office at home.
5. Organize the new house.
6. Clean the yard.
7. Start to eat outside more.
8. Make new friends- Girlfriend are needed badly! - Please apply to my email.
9. Eat more raw food!--Thanks Vera.
10. Write more on my blog.


Ok, I am feeling better now. I think I can start some of things this weekend.

I had such an amazing week last week that I want to break down all the wonderful things and start to infuse my life with them.

In other more wonderful news... It is spring time in Seattle!
Bring on the long nights and the beautiful flowers!

Some of my moving paintings.....

So a couple of years ago I started to make video art. I was given a copy of a program called ONADIME. This is a music visualization program. I started to upload my photographs and film footage to create what I call a moving painting.
I did not want to make a music video and I would get so frustrated with people because you could never get them to sit down and just watch what happens.

I know that You Tube is not the best way to watch these since they are pretty small. But if you can just listen and watch you will get some sense of the meaning.
Plus if you really want I can send you a copy of DVD.

Below is one of my favorite videos. If you go to this link you will find a couple more. I plan on posting many more over the next few weeks.
Let me know what you think.


ME ON YOU TUBE

My first conference

So last week I helped to organize and set up a professional workshop. This was the first time I had volunteered for an organization on the professional level. I have to admit it- I loved it.

I was able to attend a workshop that was a little out of my price range, I got to spend quality with the people who presented the workshop as well as the people attending the workshop and I was also asked to join the board of the organization that put on the workshop.

This event was one of the most successful things I have ever done in my life. I felt great to be a part of this community and I am ready for more. It was also interesting because I now know I am growing up. There was nothing glamorous about this event. There were no superstars. Instead this was a room full of people who enjoyed what they did in life, who had a specialty and who wanted to learn more. And this aspect of it was what I enjoyed the most.

I guess maybe growing up in Seattle during the grunge area and then watching a good portion of my scenester friends become famous, my views tend to be a little skewed. For the last five years I have really worked on trying to figure out the difference between being happy and being cool. I am not sure both these things can happen at once. I have noticed that you can be cool without being happy but you can not be happy and cool without being happy first. Being happy, smart and interesting all leads one to being cool in my book. But by then most "cool" people will think you are boring. Which I have now realized, does not matter so much to me.

So needless to say, this event in Portland was one of the happiest and coolest things I have ever done! My views on what I want my life to be are changing. And I am becoming a smarter more talented employee while working towards my goal of working for myself.

Plus, isn't it always fun to make new friends?