Tuesday, December 30, 2008

New Years Eve

Tomorrow is a very exciting day!

New Years Eve is the time to put the past to rest and look towards the future with excitement! I will be spending the morning in the pool which is my new favorite e thing to do. Then a lovely afternoon of candle making at my studio which will end with a new years fortune candle for the both of us and lastly, I will make my intention list for 2009.

My health has been improving lately. I have been trying to get to the pool everyday. It has actually been going really well. Much like walking this summer, I am now trying to spend a few hours a day in the pool. Not only does it warm me up so that I can get through this winter, but it has also helped me get over the latest pain hump. So I am happy to go swim with the older ladies that make up my senior citizens class. Yeah, I may look like a youngster but my spine is the spine of a 90 year old!

Life is changing and my outlook has changed for the better!
I can't wait for the new year.

Friday, December 26, 2008

2008 coming to a close

Even though the Solstice already happened, 2008 is almost over according to our modern calendars. This last week that I have been snowed in has been a tough week of reflection. So many things have been going through my mind. I am ready for a fresh start!

This year has been physically and emotionally tough yet I feel more enlighten and clear on what is truly important to me. I have learned that my body is the most important thing to me right now. I am in a race against time because of my spine. It is daunting to realize that one day I will not be able to walk or move around like I do now. Yet, through all this health madness, I have come to realize how simple I want life to be. I have a clear vision of what I want to do with my life and it revolves around my health, my family, my friends and my candles. Everything else is just noise and distraction to me. In the past I put other people and jobs before my health and happiness. Not anymore! When I am on my own life becomes easier, more magical, lucky and meaningful. I am no longer confused or depressed. I am in focus and very happy to be exactly where I am right now.

I have learned, I have changed, I have grown up and matured into the person I always wanted to be. It is a great feeling to realize that with intention work, life has a focus and dreams do come true. Someone told me that the stage I am in is like a butterfly before it comes out of the cocoon. I have to do this process alone so that I when I come back into society I will be more beautiful and peaceful than before. My injury this summer has allowed for me to work through the emotional aspect of learning that I will not always be able to run around like I once was able too. I have come to peace with my situation and allowed myself to grow into a very positive space. Self love and care is the most important thing to each of us. Without this balance I have suffered and watched other's suffer as well. This balance is something that is so delicate and hard to achieve but once I got there, miracles happened all around me.

I want to share this balance with all the people that I come into contact with. I have learned what the extremes look like on both ends and now I know what the balance looks like and it is wonderful. My spine injury has been the best thing that could have happened to me. In many ways it has taught me the importance of being alone but also the importance of community and being able to depend on loved ones. This summer without the help from my father and other very close friends, I would not have been able to move. On the other hand, I spent a lot of time alone this summer coming to peace with myself. I now understand how important living a healthy lifestyle is, everything from yoga, swimming, fresh fruits and veggies to clean air and living life in the slow lane. I still have ambition and dreams, I still want to make the best candles out there and to grow my company into a large and stable company but I will do it a very different way from now on. My company will be built on balance and self care. I must practice what I preach and I am finally at that point. I was so excited to see the Cover of O magazine all about balance and self care. I read the magazine with an eye of self reflection and I am proud to say that I am finally able to say that my life is balanced and full of intention and peace.

2009 is going to be an amazing year!

Monday, December 22, 2008

So many exciting things!

For the last two years I have had a secret hero.
A few years ago I read a little blurb about a company called Bramble Berry Inc. It is a soap making company that not only has a signature line of goods but also has a wonderful store in Bellingham, WA. One of my big plans this summer before I was hurt was to drive up to Bellingham to check out the store. I have always wanted to meet the lady who started this company. Well today I was checking in my emails and I noticed that someone left a comment on my solstice blog. I followed the link and found out that it is in fact my secret hero who found my blog and was kind enough to leave a message. This makes my heart soar and fills me with holiday cheer! Anne-Marie if you are out there, send me an email and let's set up a date for coffee! I would love to meet you and bring you some candles. You are an inspiration and hero of mine!

In other exciting news, it looks like my candles are warming the hearts of many people back East. I just found out that the candles that I shipped back for the sale in NYC are being bought as Client Gifts for some very exciting people and companies. I can not reveal too many details but these contacts are very good contacts for Odessa's Herbals. And actually this news marks an intention I made over 10 years ago. During my time in NYC I had a friend that made these beautiful throw blankets. She received an order for 20 blankets to be given by a very popular and powerful artist who also does a lot of work in the magazine/catalog world. He has very high end clients and friends. I was very excited for my friend and I remember thinking to myself "I intend one day to create a product that he will give to his friends and clients as a holiday gift". This was before I had created Odessa's Herbals and even before I was interested in business. All I knew was that this single act was a dream of mine that I put down on paper as an intention. Skip ten years ahead, a lot of lessons and self reflection learned and poof! I found out today that he is giving my candles as his holiday gift. I just keep smiling and shaking my head watching the way the universe works even when I am bed ridden and sick.

I keep reflecting back on this year and how I truly feel like I have found my life's purpose. I can not imagine a better way to help people and share my personal gifts with the world. When I am on the right path, life becomes so magical and meaningful. I truly hope that everyone I meet and everyone that receives one of my candles can feel this amazing energy and pass it on.

It has snowed so much here and it just keeps coming. I have given upon trying to walk because it is so hard to walk and one fall, well that would just be really bad news for me. So I am staying inside, cleaning and spending quality time with my animals. I just bought some really exciting new books so I will be happy for another few days but I need to get to my studio. I miss candle making and have a few more presents to make before the holidays are over.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Happy Solstice!

It has been snowing nonstop for the last 24 hours here in Seattle. I had planned on a winter solstice dinner with a friend of mine but alas, I am snowed in and he is across town. So instead of a cozy dinner, I have been thinking about the fact that this is the true New Years Eve. What are my intentions for the upcoming year? What do I want to Manifest this year? What direction do I want to move towards?

This year has been such a lesson about Health and Wellness as well as Balance. HWB as I call it. So many of my desires in 2009 revolve around these three words. Health with my body, Wellness with how I live my life and Balance in my everyday life. The key is to live with all three parts have to be practiced at once.

I am really looking forward to this new year. It feels very different in energy for last year. Last year it was a dark winter and I felt heavy at the time. This year has been a really nice fall with a slam of East Coast winter and mix that with the Midwest Sunshine in very cold weather and I am feeling bright and Sunny. And with my recent changes in my body I feel light and strong. So this new year feels good!

I am off to take my lovely dog for a walk in the 10 plus inches of snow and take some pictures. She is so happy to run around and play. It is very sweet.

Friday, December 19, 2008

New Book

I have been trying to figure out how to blog about my new favorite book but it has been hard because I loved this book for so many personal reasons. I read "Julia's Chocolates" by Cathy Lamb this week and loved it. Julie's Chocolates was a nice combination of "Garden Secrets" and "Practical Magic". It was an empowering book for me. Sometimes I read books that fill my heart with love and more importantly hope, this is one of those books. It did not have as much magical realism as I like and I hope that Cathy adds more of this in her next few books and I have a feeling she will be. But if you want a nice easy read that will touch your heart then I recommend this book.

It has been snowing and freezing for the last week or so. It is very unusual weather for the northwest but I am enjoying myself. It has been a while since I have been at my studio, I even had a dream about candle making last night! As soon as I can get over there I will. I have been creating new candles and spending a lot of time perfecting the art of candle making. I will be starting candle making classes next year and I received my first booking this week. I am so excited to spend an evening sharing my love of candle making with my love of teaching people about intention and how to create the life they desire. Over the next few weeks I am going to create an outline of my talk. There is so much to share with these women and I am really excited about this evening.

Lately I have been slowing down in life. While I do not love living in the slow lane, I have been able to really see how magical life is by slowing down this much. Everything in life seems to be perfectly planned and desires become reality so easily when life is lived this slow. I have been reflecting about how out of touch with community our modern life seems to have taken us and how even though we are in a horrible recession, there is still energy for change and creativity that will take us forward and connect us with our local communities once again. As a consumer we have so much power to stop buying products made by machines or overseas and we can empower the companies in the USA to start producing high grade products that support all of us. We all need to just slow down a little in life.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Today I Feel Very Small In My Body

Two steps forward, one step back. This seems to be my motto lately. I have good days and bad, good weeks and slow weeks. This has been a slow week. I am still juggling my desire to get out and see people with my exhaustion level. It is hard to do more than one thing a day and if I really push myself, well then I could be in bed for days afterwards. There is still so much to learn about my new body and what it needs. I am losing weight from this experience and it is not hard at all. It feels like it is just coming off easily. But a lot of this is due to my stomach being so sensitive from all the medication I now have to take. I can hardly eat and when I do it is such a small amount. Of course, all the walks and physical therapy are also helping me to become smaller.

Actually, this week I started my first Senior Citizens Water class. I have to start small and work my way up to being able to do so many things. It felt really great to be in the water. It was a little cold but after the hour long class I had the "wonderful day at the beach" feeling. It also helped that I sat in the Sauna for 30 mins or so as I talked to a very interesting woman about intention work.

This sauna experience brought my core body temperature up so that the cold storm we are having right now is not bothering me at all. Last night I went for a midnight walk in the snow with my dog. I let her be off lease because it was so quiet and peaceful out plus she LOVES the snow. It was almost an east coast snow storm with the large flakes and the orange sky. It was dreamy and so much fun! Of course today I was totally exhausted from all these activities but it was well worth it.

I heard that the New York Sale was a success and everybody loved the candles. I can't wait to see some pictures from the event. I am just happy to know that I was able to ship all those candles and none of them were hurt!

I have a very busy candle week this week. Loads of deliveries to make and new candles to finish before the holidays. Plus, the Solstice and New Years Eve is coming up. These are my personal days of the year when I reflect on the past and look towards the future. What are some of your intentions this year? I will have to think about mine. So many things have changed from last year that I really must think about the new list I will be making on New Years Day.

Saturday, December 06, 2008

What a wonderful evening!

Last night's party at Kelley Moore's house was amazing! My date was the perfect gentleman, my friends ended up being invited as well, old friends that I had not seen since before my spinal disease took me down this summer were there and new people were brought into my life. I loved the whole evening! I had an amazing flapperish looking outfit that I had just bought the day of the party and I managed to find a new makeup line I love. It was a busy prepping day for the party but well worth energy.

Today was an art show by my good friend and dinner with her husband and baby. It was so much fun. I can not believe how busy The South Park Art Under $100.00 show was! South Park is a very cute little section of Seattle near Georgetown. I was only able to stay for a few minutes but I was so proud of her.

My energy level is really low due to all my activities yesterday so I have been resting today. I am still trying to learn to manage my body and my energy level without running myself to exhaustion. In many ways I still feel like a stranger in my new post spine injury and my energy levels are just one example.

Tomorrow is candle making and preparing for the week.
My candle sale in NYC is still on for next weekend. I wish I could be there since I just found out my favorite living photographer has a show and video installation at the Whitney right now. But alas, I am still too ill. Next time!

Thursday, December 04, 2008

Amazing Day!

I know I should not be excited about this, but today we had the most amazing sunny day here in Seattle. (global warming!) It was a little chilly in the morning but by the afternoon..... Perfection!
I had lunch with a friend and then we drove down to the beach with my dog and had a great time. My face feels nice and happy--full of vitamin D. I was able to take my jacket off and play on the shore for hours. Ahmi was off leash since we were the only one around and she loved it. I am constantly amazed by how beautiful Seattle is. I even saw some cherry trees blooming.

So tomorrow starts the holiday parties. Actually, I missed two this week while preparing for the NYC show. So tomorrow is my first party and it is being thrown by Kelley Moore, our local kick ass Martha Stewart. I am going to dress in clothing that has never been soiled by wax and even wear heels. I am hoping to get my date all lined up and put him in some of his fancy new clothes he just got thanks to his big new contract. I can't wait!

The candles arrive next week for the show..... I have been a little nervous since this will be the first time my candles have been for sale without me! I know the lady who is selling them and she is amazing so I know it will go well but sometimes at night when I am tired I just get so exhausted and nervous!

I am very happy to report that the last few days have been really good days for my back. It is healing and I am getting stronger everyday. I almost felt normal today. I had a slight bit of pain but for the most part, it was like old times.

Wednesday, December 03, 2008

So many things

Ok, it has been forever since I last posted.
So many things to update everyone about. I was diagnosed with a Back Disease where my disks are falling apart, it is working it's way up my spine. Right now I am in good shape. I am up and walking again, I only have a slight limp and some times I need to take it slow. But it is a far place from this summer when I could not even walk around the block. This is a life long disease that may or may not get worse and has no cure. I have been told not to think about the future and for the most part I am not, but sometimes I do get down and worry what I will look like in 5, 10 or even 20 years. Right now my back looks like the back of an 85 year old so on the inside...... What will it look like in the future?

I was supposed to fly to the east coast last week but had to cancel at the last moment. I was simply not ready to travel and I am still not ready. But I can see myself traveling in a few short months so that makes me happy. I had a lovely holiday with my family and spent a lot of time with my nephew. I also made intention candles all week long and fell in love with my candles again.... I am so happy when I leave my studio!

My candles will be for sale in New York City next weekend at a huge show. My cousin Michele O'Hana will be selling them for me and I can not wait to hear how it goes. I wish I could be there but next time. Plus, when I go back east I always stay upstate so the city is lost on me. Even when I lived there I spent most of my time ready, walking and writing. I am too much of a country girl at heart. Anyways, if you want the address of the show, just send me an email and I will send it along. I know it will be around Broadway and Broom St in SOHO.

I am also preparing for the magazine spread featuring my candles that will be coming out in Seattle Metropolitan magazine next month. I will have more information about that in the next few weeks. And our local Party Planner expert, Kelley Moore is featuring Odessa's Herbals in an upcoming newsletter! So much press lately and it makes me so happy!

A few weeks ago I had a wonderful client throw a party for her girlfriends that featured my candles. It was an amazing afternoon and even the sun came out to shine for us! I am so thankful to Kerri for sharing her passion for my candles and she is truly my angel right now. I will be linking to her website and will post a little bio about her. She is having another candle party in January so let me know if you would like to attend. I am hoping to make this a monthly event.

My heart is full of love for so many people right now. I had a wonderful lunch with a man that I adore today and it just made my day. He is someone who is very special to me and I am so thankful he came back into my life. Sometimes people come back into our lives that just love us like nobody else can. He has always been very special to me but now that we are older, it is just deeper and more rewarding!


Ok, enough of that. I am off to finish up getting everything ready for NYC and then to wash up and sleep. I had a long day of working and walking so I must crash very soon. All I know is that my health is getting better everyday and I am feeling very magical right now. Everything I touch seems to just light up and flow in a very good way. This is the perfect energy for the holiday season!