Too little too late

Great News!

I quit my corporate job!!!

And I have never felt better.

I did it last friday on a very positive and powerful day. The equinox, the new moon and an eclipse all happened the day I realized I was not living my best life.

I have two more weeks before my last day, I did not want to hurt my group, and then I am FREE....

And so happy!

I will be doing some contracting work and I will also be making candles and spending time cleaning my garden out before the winter.

I am just so happy to have my life back.

October will soon become my favorite month

This is the month where I am leaving the situation that has caused me much distress and I will be open and free for the universe to previde better options for me.

I can't wait. Once I realized I did not have to stay at my job I felt all the dark energy suddenly lift away.
I can focus on myself again. I can learn, I can make candles, I can give readings!!!!!

I can get back to what I need to do.

It's funny because as soon as I realized I was free, I stoped wanting to take my ADD medication that I started again because of this job. I no longer need that. I was only taking it in hopes that it would change me, but who wants that?
Not me.

So I now must make amends with all who has had to suffer my intake of negative energy.

I love you all very much and I am sorry!

Wow

So it has been a month already...
Phew. This summer has been pretty amazing.

I made a decision last night that has totally changed my energy. I feel alive again. I can't wait to start sending out my resumes.
It took someone talking about following their gut and not staying in situations that make them unhappy to realize that I do have choices in my life. I don't have to remain in something that is not a good match for my energy.

I also have noticed that my energy level is starting to match my coworkers which is not good at all. I need to work some place upbeat and creative, where fear does not run the show.

So I am putting my energy and intention out there to have something new lined up by Oct. 31st and to make it to the design conference in NYC the weekend before that!

Dyll Pickle

Much has happened since I was last able to blog. Mostly exciting but some draining.

Here is my wonderful nephew that was born almost two weeks ago. He is the first baby in the family and hopefully not the last. I have already been able to rock him to sleep twice (I have what my family calls, baby mojo). He is so sweet and perfect.



Next up on the new changes report is that this week I spent 6 hours interviewing for a new job in the company I work for. This job would truly be a much better fit for me. I would be able to put to use my skills and interests and get paid for it. I want this job so much I would gladly pay to do it just to learn for the woman who could be my new manager. I know I was the last person to interview for the job and I had already made it to the second round without even interviewing in the first round. But alas, I am learning to be patient and stay positive. An endless lesson for me!

Now let's move to my garden where heirloom tomatoes are bountiful and so ripe they are splitting. I have already started to look towards what I want to grow next season.
I am starting to get my heirloom seed catalogs and I am very excited about having a house warm and sunny enough to start seedlings.

I have also been reading like a mad woman. Free books is not a good thing for me. I am like an candy freak in Willy Wonka's factory. Everyday I bring books home and read them.
I am almost reading a book a day. I have decided to start telling my wonderful readers what books I have been enjoying lately so that you will know I am relaxing and taking pleasure is something besides 12 hour days. As my good friend Vera mentioned on her blog, a new book that I read a month ago is now out on the market and a wonderful read. It is called Psychic Junkie and I read it in one afternoon. In fact I could not put this book down. I saw some of myself in this story but I also came to understand what a true gift I have. I am lucky to have never called any 1-900 psychic lines or gotten my palm read. My one friend that is very psychic and I could talk but it was never out of hand and I have been lucky with my friends who don't take advantage of my gift. I am so glad to have gotten to the end of the book where the author truly experiences that light at the end of the shadow side and ends up having a much more exciting and positive life than before. I highly recommend this book for these warm summer weekends.

I also just got an Heirloom tomato cookbook from Chronicle that I am very excited to use this weekend!


PS. The name of this post is the new nickname for my sweet nephew since everytime I have asked him if he is going to like dill pickles (which I love) he gives me a funny smile face.

Heat

Wow!
It is hot out here in the Northwest!
This heat wave weekend has been full of cleaning.

I have been doing summer cleaning and Yoga while sweating and watching all my animals lay around with their belly's hanging out.
I rearranged my bedroom and now at night I can smell the heat, the sound and the Eucalyptus trees outside my window. I feel like I am in California.

In other big news I am going to do my first Yoga retreat in September. I am very excited about this. It is going to be a weekend filled with organic food, Yoga and will be held on a very beautiful Island called Orcas Island in the San Juans. They have natural hotsprings and wonderful beaches.

Work is well. I am still standing up for myself and making friends. I am approaching my fifth month on the job and I can't believe time has just flown by!
In the next few days, I will be an Aunty and my board position has started.

Life is taking on a very grown up and peaceful feel to it. I will now balance working and my inner world in a nice way.

My tomatoes are almost ready to be eaten! I can't wait to share the wonderful food with all my friends.
I must go trim my basil now.

Learn from my mistakes

This has been my theme lately.
I have stopped being so critical of myself and I have decided to treat life like a science experiment or math problem. If you make a mistake, learn from it and move on until the desired outcome is reached.

This is a big shift for me. I used to be so frozen from fear and negative thoughts.
I feel free, mature and very grounded!

My other exciting lesson right now is to stop being a victim. I have taken a situation in which I felt victimized and I am turning it around to a place where I am in control, level headed and all emotions have left the situation. I understand what is happening, I know it is wrong and I am willing to walk away from it. I will not play a part in this negative cycle.

Oh, and I did Yoga today so I feel GREAT!!!!!

Starting next week, I might take some private lessons.
That is going to be great!

I love Yoga Life

After seeing Doreen Virtue in Seattle last month, I was inspired to start doing Yoga.
I found an amazing studio and signed up for the intro class.

This was my second week and I can't say anything more than "I LOVE IT".
The studio is beautiful. You can check it out here YOGA LIFE .
This place makes me want to quit my tech job and just do Yoga all day long.
I feel like I am having a midlife crisis. I want to work in a positive environment where I can have a perfect balance of work and personal life. But then I am too ambitious to not work in the tech world.

I know my path will become more clear and I will find this balance.

Sometimes you just need to relax

Sometimes I need to just relax and do nothing.

Ever since going to see Doreen Virtue I have been having a magical time.
I had such a great time at the conference.
It felt really good to be visiting with friends and connecting with strangers.

I was also able to give a very good reading to a lovely stranger that meant so much to her. I was able to help her connect with her parents.
It felt great to help her.

I am now relaxing in the heat wave we are experiencing here in Seattle.
Tomorrow I have my first meeting as a member of the board.

A whole new energy

This week has been amazing.
I am no longer stressed out. I am no longer falling for negative energy or letting it affect me.

I am carefree, excited, happy, friendly and confident.

AHHHH!!!!

It feels good to be me right now.

Next week I start working with the board. I am very excited about this!
I am also making friends at my new job and smoothing vendor/customer relations.


Tonight I am in Olympia and tomorrow I return to Seattle to see Doreen Virtue.
Then on Sunday I will watch the world cup and relax.

I will let you know how my conference goes this weekend.
I am excited to see how the energy feels and how I fit into it. Usually I am very cautious of this type of events but I am truly going tomorrow with an open mind!

Do you have world cup fever?

I must confess that I have world cup fever. Every morning I put my head phones on and dream I am in Germany watching all the games.
I have always been a world cup fan, from my French boyfriend my junior year of high school to watching the world cup in Italy with some old men. I have loved it every four years.

I think I might take the final day off work to watch it.

This weekend I plan on seeing Doreen Virtue on Saturday and watching soccer all day Sunday.

I need to really post more....

I am so sorry!

I really need to post more. At night when I get home I am so tired and uninspired that blogging seems like the last thing I would want to do.
But then I still read blogs daily and get sad when my favorite bloggers have not posted. So my new summers resolution is to blog at least three times a week!

Today I am getting my eyes checked because I need glasses. It is the sad truth. I am the last one in my family to get glasses. However, my time has come. I have picked out a nice pink and black pair that I think look good.



In other news Doreen Virtue is coming to Seattle on June 17th!
I have yet to admit this to anyone but I am going to see her. I am actually really excited to see what it will be like. Luckily for me, some friends from Portland are coming up to see her as well so I know I like 3 people who will be there already.

I am on the Board

I am now a board member on my first professional board.

It was a hard decision to make because I needed to figure out if I was going to move or not .
While I do want to move, I am just not sure it is the right time to leave this wonderful house and my family.

What also made me want to join this board in Seattle is that I know the president and I think she is really wonderful.

I will stay connected with Portland and that city is not off my radar. I just need to stay where I am right now.

I feel a great weight has lifted for now.

I hope everyone is enjoying this wonderful weather and don't forget. The solstice is soon!

The Best Day Ever!

Thursday I had what I can only call as the best day ever!

I went to see Jody Turner speak. Her new talk is wonderfully named "Brand is Dead".
She is a true inspiration and positive force in the design community. She is able to travel all over the world and report on what inspires her as well as communities all over.

We were able to spend some time together after her talk and is was refreshing to see that who she is on stage and in her career, is who she is in person. She is living her dream and helping to make the world a better place.

I truly admire her.
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In other news, I am cleaning my guest house out for my mother. She is arriving today and will be staying for as long as she wants. I have such a great relationship with my mother that I am just so excited to have her so close. I know she will be very happy out here. And my sister is now 8 months pregnant so she is excited to have extra help.

I have so many positive things happening in my life right now and so much joy I just want to share it with everyone.

Ok, back to cleaning!

Books

One great thing about my job is how many books I get for free.
I am getting a lovely collection of books that have just been released and I can proudly announce I have already read.

This weekend I read Julia Cameron's new memoir, Floor Sample. She is the author of the Artist's Way and Vein of Gold. Her new memoir is a roller coaster ride of the life of an intuitive and high sensitive soul. I enjoyed it but it was also a little sad. I began to wonder when will people like Julia or Sonia Choquette or even people like myself be able to have a part of society that we can call our own? Being intuitive does not mean you are crazy or have to have breakdowns. For some of us, it means we are just like everybody else, except we just have extra unusual lives. I love that I am following my dreams, that I am interested in business but I can also give you a very insightful and accurate reading of yourself and your loved ones.

One thing that did really inspire me was her rule of writing three pages a day. This adds up to 90 pages a month which in two to three months can mean a whole book.

I think that I might start working towards this goal. One thing I have always loved in life was writing and reading but the one thing that I am most nervous and shy about is my writing. So I think it is time to address this Shadow part of myself.

New Intention

I have decided I am going to stop stressing out about work.

The universe has something more in store for me so I am going to just relax and do the best I can.

I had a wonderful BBQ this weekend. On Sunday we had a wonderful sunny day, so I went outside with my copy of Trust Your Vibes at work. I then made the decision to just enjoy myself and my skills and to have faith in myself.

I really must post some pictures of my garden. It is so beautiful.

I also bought 8 different kinds of heirloom tomatoes to plant this year. I can't wait!

One thing I am thankful for

The best thing about my job is the view from my window. I look out at the ferry path to Bainbridge Island and the Olympic mountains.
Sometimes it is so beautiful it causes me to stop what I am doing and just think about where the tide is at, to notice how the ferry pathways changes for each tide and to look at how amazing the Olympic mountains are.

It gives me perspective and a feeling of calm.

Another thing I like about my job is I enjoy how many different people there are on my floor and how friendly everyone is. I like to meet with people from other departments and get to know what they do.

So much exciting stuff

Today I feel great!

I took a problem at work, asked my inner guidance for help and found the solution right away.
It was a great step for my "gut instinct" at work.

I also realized that I need to buy a digital camera because my blog is less colorful without pictures.

Next weekend I start the candle making factory again.
I am now settling into a routine that will allow me time to focus on what's important.

Portland AIGA event

Hey everybody,
I helped bring a really great speak to give a talk in Portland, OR at the end of this month. The event is Brand and the Evolved Consumer.
The speaker is Jody Turner and she will inspire all you design heads.

I also believe that Jody uses her intution in her work and it is very exciting to see someone who can stand by what her "gut instinct" is telling her and have a success career at the same time.

I would recommend this event to anyone who is interested in design, art, the future of product development and anyone who is interested in being inspired about the future and the world.

I hope to see some of you there!

New Rule

This weekend I realized how much my thoughts run away from me. I will be focused on a simple task like weeding and suddenly I start thinking about work, friends, Portland or more work issues.
And I realized that I must stop thinking of work when I am not at work.

So starting today anytime I think about work when I am not there, I will gently remind myself of this new rule. I have so many other more wonderful things to think about.

Such as my friend who needed money this week and burned one of my candles only to learn the next day that he was going to get a bonus from work!

Or that I have been doing a lot more readings lately that have been very success and helpful for my clients.

Once I starting focusing on these things all my worries disappear. I think I am going through a big soul lesson right now about how even the smallest thought counts and it is time to really focus on manifesting my desires in each thought.

Also, my soul lesson right now is to HAVE FAITH...

Dreams

I have decided I need to keep a dream journal.
I realized tonight that my dreams are always about 1-2 years ahead of my life.

So now the fun part will begin. How will things change?
How will I be able to remember everything.

But I am excited to know that my dreams do give me chance at understanding my future more and myself.

I am off to bed!

The truth

Today was a good day.

I stayed very grounded, focused and got a lot of work done.
As I was walking home I realized how much I love the spring time. It is almost 8 at night and yet it is not even dusk yet.

I am working on taking the drama, negative energy and emotions out of my day so that I can just focus on only the things that make me very happy and positive.

SINGLES

Does anyone remember the Seattle from that movie Singles?

I grew up in this city and I just remember when I was younger how awesome Seattle was. We had Twin Peaks, Northern Exposure, Singles and grunge. I never thought I wanted to live anywhere else. I wanted to grow up, fall in love and get married in Seattle. I met people from all over the world and they thought Seattle was so amazing. I was almost famous with my friends just because I grew up in Seattle.

Then I left at the start of the Dot.com.

And I did not return for 4 years. When I came back right before the bust I was shocked. Seattle is no longer the city I loved. There are too many people, the housing market is crazy and I must say.... The music scene is no longer warm and fuzzy.

But then every once in awhile Seattle gives me little presents that make me realize how amazing it is. The fact that there is a year round growing season. The fact we have mountains and the Sound. The cherry trees when they are in full bloom.

Sometimes, I remember how much I love this city and I realize that there are pockets of energy still in Seattle that are amazing.

But I have learned from living in other places that I am ready to move on. I am ready to experience a new city. I am ready to fall in love all over again.

I got creative

Ok Universe, today I got creative.

We shall see what happens. I sent my resume to a company that I have wanted to work at for many years. It is smaller than where I am working now and more creative.

It is also in a city I have been trying to move to for awhile.

All day long I have been hearing.... Don't give up.....
And I promise I won't.

So I now ask for a little help and guidance.

Don't give up..... Get Creative

This has been my recent lesson.

All of my worries over my job and career are silly. The truth of the matter is that I have more control over the situation than I am giving myself credit for.
I am not stuck in this position forever.

Now is the time when I should trust my instinct and get creative. I need to put my positive life first instead of falling into a life style that is very out of touch with my own. This is part of my life lesson. I need to walk my own path and stay strong in it.

So I just keep thinking... "Don't give up.... Get creative"

What a divine lesson.

I am going to send my resume out to a few select companies and I am going to start focusing the positive path that I walk. I will also open Odessa's Herbals again. I need to get back to my divine gift that I can share and help other people with.

So if you have any desire for a reading or a candle please let me know.

Contact me by my email and we will set up a time to talk.

What an interesting day

Sometimes I am even shocked when doors close.
Or they become further away that I thought.

But then I also feel like my personal world, the world that lives inside of only me, has become bigger, more open and more intouch with nature.

So it is almost summer and I can't wait!

The northwest may lack winters, it maybe cloudy here for too many days in a row but the summers are amazing and I can't wait to relax!!!!

I will post more pictures this weekend.