Glassy Baby has the Tealights live!

Glassy Baby has put the Tea Lights up!
I am so excited. The picture looks amazing and I just can't believe those are my candles.

Please order your candles now for all of your Glassy Baby's and tell them I sent you!

Life and Love lessons

Sometimes life gets so busy, it is hard to take the time to examine what is happening.
Lucky, I am in a bit of a slow phase right now and I am looking at all area's of my life and where I am happy along with area's I want to change.


I have been watching the last season of Norther Exposure and Adam asked Dr. Fleischman a question that I have been pondering for the last few days.

"How do you keep the one you love?"

And the answer is....

You don't!

If you truly love someone you let them go. You hold no need to control or posses them. You allow them to just be and yourself to just be.

This is how I feel about my past year. I am allowing all the people to just be. I don't want to control or harbor any negative feelings. I just want them to be and I want to just be.

In other company related news, Glassy Baby will soon have the candles up on their website. This is very exciting for me. And makes me realize I need to revamp my site as well!

I am off to a large dinner party tonight and more candle making tomorrow night.

New Bed

This week I got a new feather down comforter and sheets to start the new year out with.
I am changing up the energy in my bedroom and life. I am throwing away all old memories that are no longer serving me in the start of this new year.

It feels good to be getting to this new place. Moving forward and beyond has never felt better to me.

Tomorrow marks a new moon that is filled with power for relationships. Could be good for some and bad for others.

I made candles all weekend and they look amazing. New colors and shapes!

Music

As you can tell, I have been going through a bit of a music revival. This has been a really good and fun process for me. I hope everyone has been enjoying the videos. They are very random but all little sound bites from different times in my life.

This weekend I welcome a good friend into my studio to join me in making candles. I am very happy to have this guest and look forward to a fun day of talking and candle making.

The holiday season has slowed down and now I am getting more personal candle orders which are always my favorite ones to make. People are ready for a new year and new intentions. I will post when new candles are being created. I have a long list of candles to tell everyone about.

Edwin Moses,

This was my theme song in 2000!

Band Of Horses - No One's Gonna Love You

What I have been listening too nonstop!

Wiped Clean

And with this evening, I am now totally free of my negative strings to the past. I know this sounds sort of strange and out of touch with my blog right now, so please forgive me. I was just released from a situation in my life that has been very draining for me and I am actually relieved.
The best part is, I made this decision myself. I came to the edge and walked away for something better and more loving for myself.

So, this is going to be truly a year of new beginnings and everything that had been keeping me in the past is now gone.

Happy New Year!

The theme for this year is.....

New beginnings!

Yep, I thought about it all day yesterday. I went through my 100 intention list for the year and thought about what the theme might be. 2007 was a very successful year for my company, but there were many hard lessons for me to learn. I am now at the point where I have learned my lessons and I am ready to move forward to new things.

I want to keep my company moving in the same direction it is now. However, I am ready to move to new area's with product development.
I am ready to move forward with relationships in my life and see what happens.
I am ready to move into a bigger space for my company ( I know already!).
I am ready to travel more and see new places.
I am ready to take better care of myself and truly love the life I live.
I am ready to get a hybrid car.
I am ready to settle into my new job and not worry for 1 year.

So many new things to try, to do and to be!

Plus, there is always the area's that I am not ready to share on my blog yet. Those will come in time.

What are your New Year's Intentions?

New Year's Eve

2008.......

I have started to prepare already. I took a long walk this morning and then came home to clean. I am doing a huge purification night tonight. Throwing away, recycling and organizing. I know this does not sound super exciting to everyone but to me. It is the perfect way to spend the new year's eve.
Tomorrow is my day of setting intentions for the next year. Tomorrow I will announce what the theme for this upcoming year will be. I have a couple of area's I want to focus on.

I made it

The holiday orders have been filled and now I have a few days to breathe before product development starts in January for next year!

It was a rush to the finish line but I can not believe I made it. I have to toot my own horn and admit, I am very proud of myself. I did everything I set out to accomplish this year and I am only stronger because of it.

This Christmas was marked by a bit of sadness, yesterday one of my sister's cats died while I was house sitting. It had been very sick for a long time, but not the kind of thing you want on Christmas Day. Lucky, my mother and I were with the Cat as it passed away.

I also am very happy to report that my good friend Lindsay, who also cuts my hair, is going to be in Allure magazine this summer thanks to my bugging a friend who writes for Allure. I got my hair cut on Christmas Eve and was able to tell Lindsay about her upcoming spotlight!
Go Lady! She'd better not get too busy!

Ahmi and I spent the evening last night relaxing and snuggling in my bed. Tonight we go for our first long walk in almost a month. I can now finally walk again!

What I have learned from my new job!

Gift Baskets are awesome!

I am sitting at my new job with a huge food gift basket on my desk and I LOVE IT!

Things are starting to wind down for the holidays at Odessa's Herbals. I made it through the madness but not without a knee that can not bend, a studio where the floor is covered in wax and a realization that maybe, the holidays are not such a good thing(just kidding on that last part).

It has been a struggle to make it but I must admit, I did better than I ever thought I would and I am ready for next year when it will be even better.

I have my first assistant to this little candle company. It is fun to have someone come and help me with all the chores and work that needs to get done. I would have never imagined that I would have to hire someone one year into my company, but alas, it is true.

This maybe the first year that the rain and cloudy weather is getting me down. I long for snow and sunshine. The move is closer than I think. I realize that it is time for me to leave the northwest and branch out on my mine. So we shall see. This has been a common theme in the last few months, but maybe that is a sign?

A little bit of both

I am not sure if I have ever mentioned this on my blog, but I grew up moving from the East Coast to the West Coast every year of my life until middle school. For most people, they can not even imagine what this was like. Now, I am not sure I would recommend this type of childhood, it has made me able to feel like every place I am is home. Because I have been in the Northwest the last several years, I seem to forget how much the East Coast is a part of me. I had a wonderful home coming last month when I was there. I am really starting to understand and process part's of my life that just seemed "normal" to me, but that are truly unique.

The only problem with this split life, is that I always long for the Coast I am not on. My mother calls this White Line Fever. I always long to move to be near one Ocean or another. And lucky for me, I can still keep doing this in life. I have pretty much set up my life so that it is totally portable and fluid. And I am always present where I am at.

Wow

Careful what you wish for!

The Glassy Baby Tea Light candles being made by Odessa's Herbals are selling out like mad, without any Internet attention or special announcement. It's amazing!

I am in panic overtime as I try to keep up with demand while doing everything else. This is a good place for me but one that I could not have imagined for myself. Leave it up to the universe because it will always dream bigger for you than you ever would!

I am so grateful that Glassy Baby took a chance with my company and that I am able to produce a product that people are loving.

If you need to get a hold of me for any reason, you may have to wait while I make candles and try to keep up demand.

2007 really is my year for Success!

So sleepy

Some mornings I just want to stay in bed with my dog and cat and sleep! This morning was one of those mornings. I am not sure why, I went to bed early but it does not feel like enough sleep. We are only one week away from the winter solstice and I can not wait! The days will start getting longer and a new year is approaching.

I have been thinking a lot about what my theme is going to be this year. 2007 - my year of success - definitely came to fruition. But I think this next year is going to be more personal. My from my heart and more concerned with my personal life. I want to spend a year traveling, meeting people, connecting with people from my heart, fulfilling every moment with love, and much much more. I will keep you posted when I have more details about it.

Ok, I must get back to work and try to wake up. Coffee is not doing enough for me today but it is still early.

100 boxes ordered for this weekend

I have delivered 300 boxes to Glassy Baby and counting. It is so exciting to see all the wonderful Glassy Baby customers accepting my candles and falling in love with them. Each tea light is hand made by me so it is a special gift to give your loved ones. A gift set totally handmade in the Seattle with love.
Glassy Baby and Odessas Herbal's candles!
A perfect combination.

I finally posted some pictures of my trip back east. I have 5 more rolls to develop next week so look out for even more pictures.

I will let you know when Glassy Baby has posted pictures of my candles.

My knee is finally getting better and my new job rocks so I have been very busy this week.

A vision of the future

This morning I was up early to work. It was snowing such large flakes that the everything was white in record time. I sat in my kitchen, which is my new studio until I can get my leg in better shape, and I made candles. the whole time I had Rick Bass and Montana on my mind. It was so peaceful and meditative. I looked out the windows and watched the snow fall, as I prepared my delivery to Glassy Baby. I thought about what I would like to create for myself in the next few years, a home in the country, a successful company, a larger studio that is either in my home or right next to it. And peaceful Sunday mornings where I work quietly, watch nature and drink a good cup of coffee.

I start my new job today. So for the next month, I will be all work and no fun. Or at least it may appear that way. For me, candle making is my love and fun. I don't mind spending every moment working on candles. I am just so thankful to have had such a wonderful year.

Snow

I don't remember a year where it snowed so early in December. The animals in my house have been eating like they may never get another meal. I kept thinking maybe it's going to be a cold winter, but I did not really believe it.
The flakes are small so I am not too worried about this weekend but I am longing for the South. It was so warm on the East Coast and I loved it.

My knee is getting better. It has gotten a tad smaller and is easier to walk on. This is all good news because I have a weekend of tea light making that needs to happen. I can't wait to get back into the studio. I also just placed an order for new molds. On the East Coast I visited with a very wonderful artist named Michele O'Hana, she is my hero and inspiration. She had so many new idea's for my candles and I can't wait to start creating.

I will keep you updated on the snow storm ( ha ha) happening in Seattle and hopefully will be walking around soon.

Bum Knee

This is what my grandfather used to say when his knee went out.
This is what I am now saying because I can not walk. I am bed ridden and not loving it. I pulled some ligaments on the plane and now I can not move. Or at least I should not move. It is hard to get me to stay still.

I did visit Glassy Baby this morning and I am super excited to say the place was packed. They have almost sold out of the tea lights and I will be bringing in more in the morning. Even with my knee out, I can not stop doing what I love. I am catching up on reading new books. And I have my lap top in bed with me so I can do research for my next projects. But I would love to be at my studio, making candles, smelling the oils and enjoying the heat of the steam rising as I pour candles into the molds.

So hopefully tomorrow I can get to the studio and do what I love. Make candles and relaxing.

But alas, my knee is swollen, I may have to get surgery and I start my new job on Monday. My today is better than yesterday so keep your fingers crossed.

Thank you Berkshire Country!

I had my most successful show this last weekend in the Berkshires!

The Berkshires are home to the Kirpalu Yoga retreat center, Lenox, MA and loads of writers from the past, as well as countless amazing artists from modern times.

I had such a lovely visit to so many small towns. I just drove around on Friday and looked at all the wonderful houses and buildings that I would love to house Odessa's Herbals in. Sunday was my show and I met so many new and wonderful people. I was a little quieter than normal due to a sore throat but it was still amazing to be a part of the sale and see old friends from when I lived in NYC.

I have started to make a list of small towns that I would love to move too in the North East and unless something really big happens, I maybe moving soon! Of course, I always say this and never do because my heart is in the Northwest.

I am now currently in Virginia where my family lives and where I spent half my childhood. It is a very warm fall and I have been totally overdressed. Seattle is colder than the East Coast right now! I am visiting Family members I have not seen in over a year and just enjoying a little relaxation time before I return back to the Holiday season.

Another highlight of my trip so far has been seeing old friends in NYC. I was able to visit two friends that work on Sailboats and live on the water in Long Island. One friend I talk with almost everyday, but the other friend I had not seen or talk with in almost a year. It was so lovely to see Natalie and experience a little of her life. I will be having dinner with her on Monday night before I head back to Hudson.

I will be doing the Ladies Who Launch winter show in Seattle on December 2nd if anybody would like to stock up on candles. I have all new packaging and different pillar sizes to choose from. As well as new candle recipes and colors.

I am so inspired right now to make candles. I miss it more than anything. Next time I go on vacation, I must remember to bring a candle making kit with me! I never thought I could miss something this much, but my days feel empty without being able to make and share my candles with the world.

Look out for Odessa's Herbals coming to stores on the East Coast this summer! I am talking with a few different venues that would love to sell my candles. Wholesale is such a different world and one that I am going to slowly work towards because I still want the energy and passion to remain in my candles while my production volume goes up.

And look out for the new Jennifer Worick candle I am going to make her in honor of her new book!

Pomagrantes and late night walks

This weekend I fell in love.

I read a book called Kiss me I'm Single: An Ode To the Solo Life.
While I was reading this book and enjoying being a part of the Crave Show in Seattle, the author Amanda Ford came up and signed some books. I was able to talk with her about how much I was enjoying her book. Reading her book was like reading my cool sister's diary. She has an outlook on life and an energy that is infectious for loving life. I hope to create a candle in her honor because her book made me realize how amazing and loving life is no matter what.

I am off next week for my show in New York. I am also busy making tea lights for Glassy Baby.
Preparing for the Ladies who Launch show in December and my booth at the Rainier Club on Tuesday! It has been a very busy month and I am so sorry I have not written more.

Tomorrow I pick up another 100 pounds of wax and more essential oils. Candle making is quickly becoming the thing I truly love in life. I can be at my studio for 10 or more hours and be so calm and peaceful when I leave all thanks to my love of candle making. I feel so passionate about it. It's like falling in love with your soul mate. No matter how cranky I am when I get to the studio, by the time I leave, I am calm and settled.

My other passion in life right now is Rick Bass and his book Winter : Notes from Montana. I keep rereading passages of this book and then taking long walks at Discovery Park to think about what I read. He really is a beautiful writer and his books have me longing to move to Montana or Mississippi to experience a tiny piece of his world. Actually, on my road trip I took this summer with my friend Jeff, we did go near Rick Bass in Montana. Jeff and I decided to drive back from Great Falls, Montana where my family lives to Seattle on Highway 2. We had dinner in a town called Libby, Montana after swimming in the most beautiful Glacier Swimming hole I had ever seen. So in September on a day when it was almost snowing at Glacier, Jeff and I jumped into the water in front of 10 people that all gasped when I jumped in. After 20 minutes we put on our most warm and cozy clothing and kept on driving.

What I did not know at the time was that Rick Bass wrote about his life an hour or so outside of Libby. I now wished we could have stayed longer or gone off deeper into the woods to see what Rick Bass saw while writing this book.

But alas, I will just have to use my imagination and think about my next road trip. I am thinking Mississippi in January.

I am so proud

One of my dear friends Jennifer Worick is a force to behold. Not only is she a New York Times best selling author, a super awesome jewelry maker but she also has become a staple in my life for great advice and support.

A few weeks ago a package arrived at my house. Inside was one of Jennifer's new books, The Prairie Girl's Guide to Life: How to Sew a Sampler Quilt & 49 Other Pioneer Projects for the Modern Girl. What a delight to see my friends book published. I crawled into bed with this book and my dog and had a lovely Saturday afternoon reading and sleeping.

Jennifer has become one of my hero's because she is so passionate about her writing.
I am trying really hard to get her to help me write a book about intention rituals but alas, she maybe too busy being a best selling author and hero to women all over the world.

Please run out and buy her books and show this world that a strong woman who is this talented should be rewarded, celebrated and honored!

One Year Ago

Last year at this time, I lost my best friend Shaun Taylor.
It has taken me almost a year to fully realize how much this is going to affect my life for many years to come. This type of loss never ends. Every moment of the day feels like a reminder of how much I miss him. I often have trouble expressing my emotions and this situation is no different. For the last year I have been pushing myself to put these feelings out of my mind. I became so focused on my company and then my break up and then the move and then.... and then.... and then.....

But now, I am stepping back to realize how great of a loss this is for me and all the people that loved Shaun. Every moment of my life for the last year has carried this loss with me. I have felt more alone and empty in life this year than I ever experienced in the past. It's strange how something like a loss can affect every single situation in your life, even if you are not aware of it.

I am dedicating my company to Shaun. He was the first person I talked too when I realized I wanted to create intention products. Every candle I pour is full of love for Shaun and keeping his memory alive.

I can not tell you the sadness I feel right now. All I want is a hug from him or someone else close enough to me to realize that my emotions run a lot deeper than I could ever describe in my blog.

Goal List

Not even one year ago I made a list of goals for my company.

Yesterday, one of those goals was finally realized. Well, actually all the goals have happened but this goal was the major shoot for the stars, goals.

I am now the official candle maker for Glassy Baby!

This has been a dream of mine for a while and I am so excited about this opportunity.

I will still be making private candles and creating more candles that can be used in traveling containers. I also have been having people come visit me at my studio and help design signature candles for events. So if you ever want to come to the studio to experience what it is like to have a candle made especially for you, then contact me.

Just bought my ticket for the East Coast

I have a candle sale coming up in November on the east coast. This is very exciting to me since one year ago, I launched Odessa's Herbals in NYC.

I will also be seeing old friends, driving around the northeast and seeing my family in VA.
A much needed vacation and adventure!

I am busy preparing for an upcoming Seattle Show at the Rainier Club, my NY show and the holiday season.

Summer of books and writing

This summer has been intense. I have been rereading some of my favorite books by Miller, Nin, Lawrence, Whitman, Dickinson and others. Then I have been writing in my journal and realizing how much writing is a part of my life.

I wish I could share some of the writing I have done here. Maybe one day. For now it will simmer in my notebook and my mind. I feel like an obsessed artist. I am never without my journal. I am addicted to words, to sentences, to passages of the imagination.

I am off next week to Montana. I will be buying a new journal for this trip and recording every moment.